Whats your username on chatous?
I don't use chatous lol
siapa seseorang yang pengen sekali kamu jumpai? *sebutnama*
no.1 nggak mau disebut namanya di forum terbuka seperti ini HAHA, capek juga gw banyak nge-reference langsung ato tidak langsung di ask.fm (sorry You)
jadi no.2 aj: *CONOR OBERST* :^) (hahahaha) dulu pas nonton Bright Eyes di London, 2011, nggak sempet ketemu :( nungguin di luar venue bntar tapi habis itu gw harus catch a train back to Brighton. gw cita2 pengen bro out sama dia di-bar or something, ngebir aj palingan.. talking about life and random stuff
tapi ya kalo conversationnya bakal stretch to about those indifferent clocks, rabbit holes, jejune stars, loophole in dreams, yellow birds, lime trees, sailing away.. etc etc etc ya ayo aja sih gw ^^
salah ga sih kalau kita terus mengharapkan cinta seseorang padahal kita tau dia cuma biasa aja? alasannya?
uh.. gw ga tau sih "biasa aja" yang di pikiran lo kyk gimana maksudnya.. (sifatnya? mentalnya? etc) itu kan dari sudut pandang masing2... tapi emang kalo nggak spesial buat lo harusnya ya nggak perlu diharapkan cintanya haha. alesannya karna syp tau ada org lain yg lebih connect ke lo kan?
gw susah liat konsep "biasa aj" secara objektif sih nih hahahaha.. (everyone's special for different kinds of people yo..) but okay I'l try.. so apa mungkin maksud lo.. dia tuh "biasa aja" (in whatever form and level of biasa aj that is).. tapi ada parts of who he/she is yg make you keep thinking about him/her and keep coming back gtu ya? in that case salah ato nggak-nya tergantung sama "situasi" hubungan lo berdua sih sepertinya. mnurut gw "that feeling" ya patut dipegang juga kalo emang ada haha, tapi coba untuk jangan memaksakan situasinya kalo emg ada hal2 yg ud bikin susah.
gw juga kyknya berkelemahan dalam mengharapkan orang terlalu lama sih orangnya -___- huahuahua but at least not as bad as a few years ago I think.
I see a man and I feel nothing, but when I read his poignant writing, I couldn’t be even more in love. It was as if we connected in a spiritual level, (maybe) above admiration for a talented author. Have you felt this way before?
hmm, luckily... all the female artists I like, usually with lyrics and music I really appreciate, are quite attractive physically as well :P hahahahahahaha so perhaps I haven't felt that feel.
but then I could relate this to something personal lol. I guess this made me think of someone, someone that, perhaps because of a "time and place" thing.. because of certain moments and a timeframe of seeing each other a lot... made me feel a side of her that I have never seen before until that point.. and I guess that, combined with what I perceive of her before.... made me fell quite deeply in love lol
i think it's wrong to say that up until that point I felt "nothing" for her.. she's always a character I "noticed" and perhaps admired in a peculiar way... but yea the word LOVE was definitely a new vocabulary in that point in time. it was beautiful... at least to me -_- hahaha! if there's no more chance of ever developing it to something completely real I hope the "love" will keep spinnin in some way or another. she's always a good company for me :) #WoySoriBangetForThisSubAskFmPostKaloBacaFeelLikeWritingThisHaha!
orang yang dikangenin waktu SMP dan SMA dan masa sekarang?
ada sih yang langsung kepikiran. klasik. tapi it's about time to let whatever be with that one :) many other realities to dwell on. of course if I'm given a fair amount of time to hang and talk about stuff i'll make the most out of it. will try to not have any weird expectations, just pure love for a friend.
yang lg kepikiran dan lebih mau gw kangenin sekarang adalah beberapa orang2 atau "karakter2" yg gw temukan pas tinggal di UK :) banyak pengalaman2/perasaan2 menarik di sana dengan orang2 yang I wish had the time to know more of. So here's one to meeting people I "need" to meet again in the future! and klo suatu saat gw bikin buku or something pasti banyak kok karakter2 tersebut yang bakal menjadi inspirasi.
seberapa penting hobby pasangan bagi lo ?
Jujur "lumayan" ada pengaruh sih. Hobby n interests orang yg biasanya bikin gw tertarik dan pengen lebih tau tentang orang itu.. nggak harus sama persis hobinya yg penting ada suatu "wavelenght" yg ke-connect sih. Mnurut gw gtu2 lbih penting karna klo physical attraction it happens all the time kan? (Not saying physical attraction gk penting.. we're all naturally bound to that lah)
Tapi ya pokoknya hobi/style gtu2 yg bisa bikin gw "kepincut"... tapi beyond that.. kyknya sih "koneksi emosional" yg lbi berpengaruh lg. More to do with how the two perceive and feel things. It's like i found myself feeling something reaaaaly deep to a few people yg padahal hobby etc-nya gk bgitu mirip or g mirip sama sekali haha. I think ill take someone who shows her true colours over someone who pretends to like something to attract, anytime
Trus beyond that lagi in this "pasangan" thing ada "koneksi spiritual" juga i figured. Klo yg ini gw gk bisa jelasin dan nggak ngerti sama sekali hahaha.
Sori jawabannya ke stretch-out. Who am i to write a lot about this when currently i'm kinda out of luck in the subject -_- huahua
Do you play any online games?
hihihihi yg mana aja bole
mz andra :')
ha.. halo mz... ini bossku yg mana ya? :^)
have you ever love someone so much it hurts? Well I have and it hurts so much that I can't breathe. What should I do? :(
yes. haha yea I couldn't live properly either but I really don't want to blame that love for any bad/weird decisions (because in the end we can't blame anything anyway)... especially the fact that it's one filled more with delusions and longing more than actual closeness.
I don't know what's best for you but I did paint, I did write, I did danced, I did acted out, I did sang..and how I did sang... I sang about her, I sang about masks, I sang about walls, I sang about the circle and most recently I sang about "time" itself.. I sang about everything really haha. it's all there. and it's all beautiful. and I guess I still live and function til this day because of the capability to express that heavy love in those ways.
"if it's not for you than this love is for everyone" is a recent key sentence that's been looping in my head lately. and I really hope this love could reach out to the souls that need to feel it. of course mainly art will always still be about saving oneself.. but yea with all due respect to my viciously "indie" idealism LOL I can't deny the fact that I have this kind of thought too.... can't deny the fact that I stared at a Blur -Tender live in glastonbury video, with all those crowds singing along their hearts out.. and thought: "hey this green field of life and love that's bubbling and expanding inside me is THAT heavy and vast.. when can it be "released"???" hahahahahah
I will always have open arms for that special "place" if its ever opened its doors for me again and answers the unanswered questions that made me soooo confused and lost.. but I've been trying my best to detach that place from other potential loves.. that probably needs me more anyway. and of course all my 3 eyes are starting to look out for new love that could really be
I can only say live on and appreciate the other magic that's in your way! I'm trying my best too!!
kamu 28 April ? sama dongg :3
yay sama! (walaupun gk tau ini syp haha)
kita juga samaan ama Harper Lee, Saddam (lol..), Kim Gordon & Jorge Garcia (pictured)
I'm sure you've heard of this saying that we are created in the image of our maker. So there's no way of telling if we were only our maker's sims, that our consciousness is real, right? I doubt this a lot. If we can play god, then why can't "others"?
w..we are jejune stars ;)
[this is a Bright Eyes-influenced automatic answer for cosmic questions that I'm not sure how to answer lololol]
would you rather be fuckzoned or friendzoned? lulz
f...f..friendzoned i think. lulz. i dunno.. fuckzoning seems like the darker beast definitely
despite how nihilistic the world can make me feel I think at the end of the day I'm more "human".. and a feelsy one at that, so yea
was lurking on your ask below, "do you think that the solution to mankinds suffering is love?"
I think that the solution and ROOT of mankind's suffering is love. There is no greater suffering than the one love caused hahahaha what do you think?
hahaha the reason i wrote "it's a tough subject for me to really answer right now" and "yin yang all that" for that question was because my situation at the time definitely put me in the same mindset for love as yours right now lol..
but I really.. still can't discuss this fully right now hahahah... I feel like you can neither say it's the root or solution.. this.. word "love" is too big to be seen in that way. it's nothing and everything
yep we've talked in person and did something together before haha :)
hmm.. someone pops on my mind :p but of course I can't be too sure
insom o o o
o o o sama gk tidur jg sih tadi
nah its ok. glad i made your morning :) idk i always had this crush even more so when talking to you, but you seemed closed to the idea so i never initiated anything :')
I'm curious, have you ever talked to me in person? or just online? haha
hmm a few girls who were kinda close to me, and I still care about til now to some extent, actually approached me or initiated something first, so I do appreciate that kind of openness/confidence :)
oooo papaaaa oooooooooooooooooooooooooooo memang you papa ternyata capable of liking cewe ooooooooooooo siapa sih cwenya oooo liat doong ooooooo
ôöòóōõoooooooooo bobo gih nak omg uda mo jam 4 kok begdang
kak andra aku ngefans sejak di global :') ada pikiran utk dating sm salah satu fans2 kakak?
i guess it's possible. I mean whatever it is about me yg bikin "ngefans" kan artinya there might be some kind of common ground.. or mindset/compatibility or i dunno.. haha.
hey thx for speaking out walaupun anonymous. feeling dark, insecure and (in da love department) lonely a lot lately. this made my morning :)
OOOOOO kira kira papa mau mama baru anak siapa?
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I seriously don't know kid, pray for dad HAHAHAHA
cuz it's like calon2 mama (I'm SORRY to refer to yall that way.. MUST keep father-daughter roleplay with Natasha Estelle hahahah) yg paling nempel di kepala ituu...
1. [not currently connected].. can't say more than that... in fear of wrong perception of the whole thing between us. basically i don't understand. yang pasti banyak unanswered questions and a chance for us to just meet and sit and talk about it is probs everything to me. will try to not have any big expectations other than hoping it's cool between us. lol.
2. [just friends].. and despite of what I have truthfully expressed in my art or whatever.. I begin to think that it might really be for the best to try to keep it that way. I am terribly afraid that if I keep pushing for more it could ruin our friendship. I really wanna keep it :)
3. [currently not in contact out of a time and place thing].. but yeah if there's a chance to hang I really wanna know if there could be something more we can grow ;)
so gtu nak gk ada yg pasti sih.. so it could be a wise choice to open my eyes and open a new page in the search of "mama baru anak" lol
(taik ah tash kok gw jawab pertanyaan lo jadi serius bgt HAHAHAHAHAHHA)
lah anak memilih untuk jomblo kok :")
iya gapapa ooo anak sori papa marah2 klo anak sih papa ijinin kok single, udah gede boleh menjalani hidup sesuka hati.
tapi klo papa lumayan lagi #feelsy soal ini OOOO enak kan klo anak ada mamanya HAAHHAAHAHHAHAHAAH
papah lagi demen sama cewe ga pah? apa papah agak demen sama cowo juga? kenapa papa memilih untuk jomblo?
- urrrgh tau ah
- papa straight. serius
- papa nggak "memilih" untuk jomblo. anak jahat bgt ngomong gitu ama papanya :'(
boleh minta follback?
Udah pernah pacaran brp kali?
kalo diitung this brief "relationship" i had pas SMA mungkin pernah 1 kali ya? tapi dari sudut pandang lain bisa 0 juga sih lol. tau ah
rly tho im the type of #feels guy yg bner2 cherish "intimate moments" with the people I love or "sayang".. and i feel like there are quite a few girls who are important to me and inspire me that i've shared those kind of moments with. i am forever thankful for their time. so even tho in a traditional sense kurang berpengalaman "pacaran" maybe.. i dunno.. nevermind susah jelasinnya haha
ps. i luv ya'll. ya'll shine in your own ways :p
post-ps. FOR TEH LULZ ~CURRENT ATTRACTION STATUS CHART~ (as of 1st of february 2014):
SUKA: BANYAK. gw udh gila... :+)
SAYANG: 1? but.... hrmpph -_- .. and well maybe more sih if counting some others floating in my mind
CINTA: 0. sempet ada yg legendaris. but life goes on.