Well, it's true to some extent. I crave attention but when I get it I don't want it anymore and I wanna enjoy privacy. I prefer to be unnoticed most of the time but when it's for so long I feel like I wanna be seen. When I take a photo or write something and I think it's really beautiful, I wanna share it with people to appreciate how beautiful it is. But when I share it and it doesn't get appreciated as I thought, I despise people and I feel like they don't deserve to share my art with me whatever it is. They don't deserve to see parts of my own world.
Craving other people's attention makes them automatically the ones who rate you or whatever you do. That's why most of the time I fight this desire tbh. I love myself Alhamdulillah and I love my world and everything I'm interested in. So most of the time I like to enjoy it fully. And when there are people involved it's not possible to enjoy it fully cuz they make it not real and not full if that makes sense. So yeah, if I have to choose between having attention and being left without it, I would probably choose the latter.
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