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Thoughts? 🌸

Say Hi To Phuphaa
Nobody knows it's empty,
The smile that I wear.
The real one is left behind in the past
Because I left you there...
Nobody knows I am crying.
They won't even see my tears.
When they think I am laughing,
I wish you were here...
Nobody knows it's painful.
They think that I am strong.
They say it won't kill me,
But I wonder if they are wrong...
Nobody knows I miss you.
They think I am all set free,
But I feel like I am bound with chains,
Trapped in the mystery...
Nobody knows I need you.
They think I can do it on my own,
But they don't know I am crying
When I am all alone...

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اپنے ہاتھوں کی لکیروں میں سجا لے مجھ کو
میں ہوں تیرا تو نصیب اپنا بنا لے مجھ کو
میں جو کانٹا ہوں تو چل مجھ سے بچا کر دامن
میں ہوں گر پھول تو جوڑے میں سجا لے مجھ کو
ترک الفت کی قسم بھی کوئی ہوتی ہے قسم
تو کبھی یاد تو کر بھولنے والے مجھ کو
مجھ سے تو پوچھنے آیا ہے وفا کے معنی
یہ تری سادہ دلی مار نہ ڈالے مجھ کو
میں سمندر بھی ہوں موتی بھی ہوں غوطہ زن بھی
کوئی بھی نام مرا لے کے بلا لے مجھ کو
تو نے دیکھا نہیں آئینے سے آگے کچھ بھی
خود پرستی میں کہیں تو نہ گنوا لے مجھ کو
باندھ کر سنگ وفا کر دیا تو نے غرقاب
کون ایسا ہے جو اب ڈھونڈ نکالے مجھ کو
خود کو میں بانٹ نہ ڈالوں کہیں دامن دامن
کر دیا تو نے اگر میرے حوالے مجھ کو
میں کھلے در کے کسی گھر کا ہوں ساماں پیارے
تو دبے پاؤں کبھی آ کے چرا لے مجھ کو
کل کی بات اور ہے میں اب سا رہوں یا نہ رہوں
جتنا جی چاہے ترا آج ستا لے مجھ کو
بادہ پھر بادہ ہے میں زہر بھی پی جاؤں
شرط یہ ہے کوئی بانہوں میں سنبھالے مجھ کو

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Falling, fading
I'm slowly losing myself
ino the eternal hole of darkness
pain, betrayal, and abandonment
is all I have felt
in my 20 years of life
my smile does not reach my eyes
from a lively black to a lifeless grey
my eyes lost their color
as more scars appear
Falling, fading
I close myself off from society
my once so called friends
have forgotten me
my family does not understand
my pain seems to last forever
with no escape
the light of happiness gone
and the darkness takes over
as dangerous thoughts fill my mind
Fallin, fadng
it seems that everything good
is disappeaing
destorying my soul and heart
even so more
I try to make everybody happy,
everyone but myself
my dreams and ambitions
forgotten, gone, and dead
while the nightmares become real
and torture me
Falling, fading
I have always been
the shoulder for others to cry on,
the counciler, advisor
making unnessacary sacrifices
but never having anyone there for me
easily forgotten and replaced
only until I am needed
I don't think that I will ever be truely happy again
but after all this is only self pity
that's what they all say
but to me it is something more
The action and thoughts lead to
the slight depression of many others
whom feel as if they are fading

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Late night thoughts? 🥀

Say Hi To Phuphaa
Walking through this dark concrete forest,
Feeling those heavy stones on my chest,
Slowing me down, down and down;
In this dark of night, I'm the only one on the prowl.
The sinners crawl,
As the darkness falls,
"Hello, Hello, Remember me?
I'm everything you can't control."
Fallen Angels at my feet,
Whispering voices as my wrists are slit;
She beckons me, shall I give in?
Upon my end, shall I begin?
Death before my eyes,
Those groans you hear, aren't my lies.
I'm frightened by what I see,
Knowing there's much more to come to pierce me.
Immobilized by my fears,
And soon to be blinded by tears.
Lost from within; perusing the end,
Fighting for the chance to be lied to again.
Lost in a dying world,
I reach for something more.
And all alone, speaking to the atmosphere,
I fall into myself as no one's here.
I have grown so weary of this lie I live,
Hoping somewhere beyond the pain there must be a way to believe.
I'm standing on the edge; embracing my fate,
Death is near and it won't be too late.
Till then I'll haunt through this fiery road of hell,
Spreading darkness through my ebony shell.

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میاں حسن ✨
Such a garden in her soul,
with flowers so bright,
so lively.
The plants wilt,
dying where they stood.
Asking what went wrong,
over and over,
as the plants continue to fall.
As he left,
tears stream down,
pouring like rain.
what was meant to be.
He had to leave,
so the garden could grow.
The rain he brought,
taught the flowers to bloom.
Someone new,
to care for,
what you left behind.
~ K.writes

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LG: Quranic Verse: إنّي ظلمت نفسي ظلماً كثيراً، ولا يغفر الذّنوب إلا أنت فاغفر لي مغفرة من عندك، وارحمني إنّك أنت الغفور الرّحيم O Allah, I have been very unjust to myself and no one grants pardon against sin but You, therefore forgive me with Your forgiveness and have mercy on me.

Exact on point ...

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