It is possible. Heal your hurt with love and it is a easier to love and find love. ❣️
I have spent years upon years in therapy, on and off medications, and ostracized from my own family.
If the ones who were supposed to love me couldn't find a reason to why would I believe anyone else might?
I still hold some fragments of hope but I dont go searching for it anymore. If I stumble into it, great. If not? Well. Nothing lost, is it? Can't lose what you never had.
Every romantic relationship I was in was emotionally abusive.
I'm the one people go to for relationship advice but not the one they go to for a relationship.
A vehicle, but never someone's destination.
How I would love to be someone's destination...just once.
To feel safe in their arms. To feel comforted by their existence. To know I was in love and in return, loved. To know their scent, the feel of their skin and hair under my fingertips, to memorize the rhythm of their footsteps...
I would love nothing more than to love and be loved.
But time ticks away and every day gone is one less day with them, if they even exist.
Hope is not something that I arbitrarily gave up on.
It was beaten out of me.
If the ones who were supposed to love me couldn't find a reason to why would I believe anyone else might?
I still hold some fragments of hope but I dont go searching for it anymore. If I stumble into it, great. If not? Well. Nothing lost, is it? Can't lose what you never had.
Every romantic relationship I was in was emotionally abusive.
I'm the one people go to for relationship advice but not the one they go to for a relationship.
A vehicle, but never someone's destination.
How I would love to be someone's destination...just once.
To feel safe in their arms. To feel comforted by their existence. To know I was in love and in return, loved. To know their scent, the feel of their skin and hair under my fingertips, to memorize the rhythm of their footsteps...
I would love nothing more than to love and be loved.
But time ticks away and every day gone is one less day with them, if they even exist.
Hope is not something that I arbitrarily gave up on.
It was beaten out of me.
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