Wondering if I should enjoy the achievement of a great milestone of my life or should I think about how it's tried to be ruined in every aspect..
How the celebratory day I was waiting for has passed and it's is not even talked about, by my closest people, let alone congratulating me..
How it could magically change my life but here I am, realizing that It has started a new loop of abuse with just the title changed and with no option left, no way out.

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Yes, I was the one telling others on my level, to enjoy their day and not ruin their celebration due to any stupid reasons. But here I am, laying on the floor wondering if thats how my special day was supposed to be.
This special day is supposed to be remembered forever, but will i ever be able to recall it, considering the negative memories associated with it?

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We do not realize how many different lives we are living all at once. One at home, one with friends, one at uni or office, one with strangers, how many different ways we react to the same thing according to the surrounding. Sab se mazy ki baat to ye hai k how smoothly we can switch between these lives. Sometimes humay khud ehsaas ni hota but if you sit back and think, you would find out surprising patterns in your behavior and you would know how many different perceptions of you do people have and you deal with it everyday... I am a single human being yet I never try to bring those perceptions of me to a single point. Why? because we get used to it? because we are not the same everywhere? or perhaps we are afraid of the reaction we would get if we showed them a side of ourselves that they have never seen. Whatever the reason is, we carry much more than it can be be judged from the outside.

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