Today I have my cousins here&we're in the pool. Tonight me&mom going nans with all my aunty's and my cousin sleeping the night&its so fricken funny,specially when they're drunkxDDD
Are u fine with this? Or is it upsetting you?x Ask her about it,ask her to confide in you,I'd she doesn't want to,you tell her something about you,then say 'well I told you this.' I know it sounds bad,but its not that bad if u need to find out. Do what ever you can to find out. Then try stopping her,however you like,a challenge,a bet,a deal? Whatever,remind her you''re always there for herx
what does mhm mean? x_x xxx
like..yeah,okay,or in agreement or whatever,usually when someones in a mood or dont wanna talk i think xxx
If you lost some one who meant so much to you like a best mate what would you do?
Try my hardest to get them back,if that didn't work i'd never give in,unless i think i need too and im better off without them. Otherwise i'd do shit to help myself:),others wouldn't agree but hey.
What are you thankful for today?
Mrs Graham.
What do you believe happens to us after we die?
We come back as a wonderful animal!
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Carrying on from the other one.. I have my own problems,my own insecurity's,my own shitty life tbf. I can barely cope with that,let alone all this. But NOBODY sees my pain,nobody. Sometimes I just wish somebody would,somebody would see what I go through,or feel the same as I have. But no,nobody has. I feel so different,so alone,so unwanted. But I have for a while now,I can't get out of it. Its getting worse now&im struggleing. Guess people would cast this as a 'cry for help' but its not. I can't let it out to a individual person so I let it out on here so you know how you're makeing me feel. I don't need help,you might think I do..but I don't. I wish I wasn't me so much. I don't want this pain. I may deserve it,but I don't want it. I can't get out of it. One way. I often think of it? I do. But idec. If you did you'd show it. Fucking fakes. I never wanted this. I can't fucking understand myself. Ugh:L.
Need too make something clear; You've all being coming upto me telling me things,giving me hate,stirring things. It fucking hurts. If i don't do what u want me too,you hate me. You tell me too be me. You hate me. When i'm not me,some of you prefer it that way,but tbf,i hate that. You tell me i'm worthless. Then ask me for answers to a test. You tell me i'm full of shit,when you know fully well i'm telling the truth. You throw things at me,be abusive towards me,then tell me i'm the bad person? You constantly take he piss. It's like you actually want me hurt,you want me to have a breakdown,i tell you now i'm not far from it. Laugh at me behind my back,slag me off,make fun of me. (I know who you are). There's so much more i could add to this,but i wont. Don't you think it hurts? Don't you think i don't know who to be or what to do anymore. Don't you think i try everyday to please people,when i know all i'm doing is hurting myself. I'm played with,used,thrown around like i'm a piece of shit. Yet i'm always here for you all,i'm always trying to make you smile,when..i cant even keep my own life straight,let alone make myself smile. I'm here for you when you need me. When i need you,where are you? Nowhere. When you're crying on me,I hug you,tell you how much you're worth,reind you it's all going to be okay. Me? When i'm crying? I hear you laughing. I heard it yesterday. This is aimed at a lot of people. I want you too sit here and think 'Is that me?' 'Have i upset her recently?' 'Do i make her feel this bad?' Yes,yes you do. I don't know who i am no more,don't know where i stand. You've all fucked me about so much,i can't stand it,i cant take it. I'l carry on later,if i'm here,lol.
Ask me anything,i'll answer everything,and be 100% honest.
Do you remember your first kiss?
No:L..i remember who though,sorta?
Where is the funniest place you have ever fallen asleep?
Okay..so i was really ill and didn't know what i was doing. I lay on the floor,scrabble board game box as my pillow,dads trousers as my duvet and i fell asleep:L.
Name three things you have never done, but would like to do?
-Die. -Parachute off a plane. -Swim in the sea without the water going in my mouth>_<.