ya ready for a fucking novel?
I miss Spike, more than anything ever, hes still the first and last thing I think of every single day and I still love him with every single part of me, he made me so happy it was fucking ridiculous and we we're at our best when it was us against the world...But then people started to get involved, people said we didn't suit each other and what ever and idk I guess we let it get to us and create problems. I'll be honest though, I don't like the person he's become, hes left all the people who genuinely care about him, me, Chris etc., and I can't honestly say I want to be with someone who lets go of something so perfect and honest to try and find better. I think he knows I'll always be there but right now we aren't meant to be together, but I don't give a shit what anyone says, one day our paths will cross again and maybe next time it will work and I can sing Disney songs with him and wake up in the morning intertwined, and he can cheer me up after a shitty day at work and stroke my hair when I fall asleep:(
So yeah basically, he's still my whole world, in my eyes hes still my Spike, my perfect wonder boy and I guess I'm coming to terms with that for now
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