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i saw your youtube video and it touched my heart, i cant relate in so many ways, ive been through self harm and youve made me realize that im not alone, so thank you so much your an inspiration xxxx

This broke my heart to read, ok I send this to anybody I know who self harms, so ye please read this: Ok, I'm not going to say "I understand" because nobody knows what you're experiencing completely but I can relate to you. What I want you to do next time you pick up that blade, is look at yourself and I mean really look at yourself, you are stronger than this, and you will make it through this, I know right now you feel like nothing will ever get better and you're always going to feel this way but I promise you, it does get better, it will get better and even though it may seem like the hardest thing to do now but just keep holding on and please never ever give up. I know the relief you feel after you've harmed is something that compensates for all the hurt you feel inside, I know that by putting a blade to your wrist it makes you happier, but for what? All of 5 seconds? Just before the sense of relief goes and you hit rock bottom all over again? It's like a never ending cycle. The most important thing is that you need to tell somebody, anybody, but just make sure somebody knows and you have someone there to listen to you and to comfort you, because keeping all your emotions bottled up, that's what destroys you the most. So you want to kill yourself? Because no one cares about you. Your family hates you, Right? No. Your parents walking in your room in the morning to only find a dead body. They’ll try their hardest not to think negative, and to just think that you’re fooling around. Then they’ll start shaking you. Why aren’t you breathing? They’ll be broken. Tears. Many tears. More tears than you ever shed. Was it them? Were they the reason you did this? More tears. Pain. Every day. Every night. Every single second of the day. Guilt. More guilt. What about your best friends? They’re not going to care, right? No. What’s the first thing that will go through their mind when your head teacher comes in and tells the class that you’re not alive. While your best friend sits there in tears. That girl that you’d smile at but never talk to? Now she’s crying. The boy who used to kick you under the table just to annoy you? He’ll be shocked. He’ll be devastated. He’ll blame himself. What about your teacher? Thoughts crossing her mind. She’ll question if you did it because she didn’t make school comfortable enough for you. Pain. Devastation. All in one. Who organises your funeral? Who has to go through your stuff? Clothes? Notes? Those few older girls who used to give you daggers at school? They’ll feel regret. They’ll blame themselves. See, if you killed yourself today, you’ll never know what might of happened tomorrow. You’ll never know because you’re dead. Plain dead. Not breathing. Not alive. Just dead. nd I promise, if you do it, you are not only hurting yourself, you are hurting many. You are creating more tears than you led yourself to. You are beautiful, you are worth something and you are never alone x

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Getting people to report me, too kind. I'm on your friends list Leigh, figure out who I am? If I'm getting to you, tell me to stop and I will. If and only if you swear to be nicer and become a better person at Bodmin College to everyone.

im not a horrible person, your making out like your the 'good person' but your horrible to everyone on here, i find it hilarious how you went out of your way to make an account just you could bully everyone.. no, it is not bothering me because i couldn't give a shit who you are and what you think and if you are on my friends list on facebook, i cant believe im 'friends' with some one so utterly disgusting and rude, i have a strong idea of who you are and if you say anything more i will go to the police and they will find out who you are, locate you, and you'll be made a foul of, should have thought about this before you became such a poor human being:)

Do you think that there are any topics that there should be more movies about?

what mental health is 'really' like, not horror movies that think schizophrenia is a split personality and one minute they're normal the next a serial killer.. or something bollocks like that

Favourite bands?

oh god, there are more but..
pierce the veil, the beatles,
bastille arctic, monkeys,
the rolling stones, ac/dc,
led zeppelin, the who,
metallica, pink floyd,
nirvana, ramones,
two door cinema club, oasis,
green day, blink 182,
foo fighters, paramore,
muse, iron maiden,
30 seconds to mars, imagine dragons,
bon jovi, biffy clyro,
sleeping with sirens, all time low,
of mice and men, bring me the horizon,
a day to remember, all time low
mayday parade, the kooks,
marilyn manson, blur,
bombay bicycle club, mumford and sons,
the quarrymen, pegasus bridge,
the smiths, stereophonics,
twin atlantic, the vaccines,
you me at six, escape the fate.. etc

Are you seeing nick then?:') If so your standards have gone right down going for younger boys lol

yes i am, honestly i never thought id go for someone younger but other than age, nick is no different than me.. i wouldnt go for the immature type and i certainly wouldnt be spending time on nick i didnt think he was as mature as myself.. i really really dont see how my standards have dropped, thats a very immature thing to say and quite frankly, both me and nick dont care what people think of the few months between us
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