Edyssa, I hope you know there are people there for you. I know maybe relationships (friendships, etc.) may not last like you want, but accept help while it's there. There are so many people that would cross oceans just to see you smile. You are loved, don't ever think otherwise. Please.
I do realize that. I have many many great, supporting people there and I can't thank them enough. They keep me going and they're the reason for my smiles. I wish I was able to realize how blessed I am. Because you're right, I know they'd do anything for me. And one day, I'm going to prove to them how much I love each and everyone of them