Ask @MicahBuzan:

Have you ever watched a anime-show called Death Note? And if you did, did you like it?

I read the first chapter of the Manga. Never watched the anime. I don't keep too up to date on anime these days. My favorite period of Anime was the 80's and 90's. Aside from the stuff Studio Ghibli produces, I feel like too much of modern anime has lost the hand drawn aesthetic and in favor for the digital. Satoshi Kon's films are really awesome, striking the balance between hand made art and computers. But yeah I'll have to check out Death Note. It seems fascinating.

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Hey, really enjoy your work. My question is I get really depressed also when I don't create, but latley I discovered that I've grown to love being depressed and suicidal. Iam trying to kick the habit but This task is difficult, concidering a life time of verbal and physical abuse. Any advice?

This is a good but difficult question. Every person has to follow his/her own path, so I'm hesitant to offer advice. I'm no guru. I'm highly skeptical of anyone who claims to have all the answers. I'm naive about most things, although the act of creating is something I am familiar with. Art is an extension of my personality, so when I'm not making something, I feel an emptiness. A big chunk of my brain goes missing. The emptiness turns into anger/depression.
I understand what you mean when you say you feel addicted to being depressed. I don't know why this happens. I think it's easier to be pessimistic than optimistic, so maybe the brain is searching for an easy way out of thinking critically about problems. This isn't to say it's shallow to be critical. But I think it's better to confront the problems of life head on with a smile than to hide in the shadows. First the darkness is scary. But soon the depression is seems normal, even comforting in it's familiarity. Eyes adjust to darkness, and after awhile, looking at the light is painful. Sadness becomes some twisted form of happiness and ordinary happiness just seems pointless.
Thoughts are temporary. Emotions are temporary. There's no sense in trying to hold on to happiness or trying to avoid depression. Just recognize your state of mind without becoming attached to it or repelled by it. Of course, now I'm just echoing the thoughts of Buddhists.

That's the best advice I can give. The mind is mysterious thing. Neuroscience is making progress, but we still don't know how it works. If you have a lot of pain from abuse, I would recommend you seek professional help. Gabor Mate has great insight into this sort of thing.
Peace!

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whats your favorite color?

I like combinations of orange and purple. I suppose if I had to just pick one favorite color, I'd say black - even though black is supposedly the absence of color. I don't believe the human eye could actually perceive the true absence of color. If something ceased to exist, why would we go about describing it's lack of existence? If the brain perceived the absence of anything, it would be stimulated by nothing, thus rendering descriptive words like "black" completely meaningless.

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You seem to be so dedicated to what you do, both in music and in art, and both make an impression of professionality and hard work. I listened to some of your albums - not only are the songs very well written, but also well recorded and mixed. Your animations must be a result of hundreds of hours of

I really appreciate the encouragement. You are really kind. Making animation as a one-man studio is an extremely isolating thing, so It means a lot when a stranger can connect with something I did. Although, making things for the enjoyment of people isn't what motivates me. It's part of the equation for sure, but the main thing for me is that if I'm not creating something every single day, I start to feel guilty and depressed. So in one way making art is a coping mechanism against feeling depressed. As for the money side of things, I don't make much money at all off my music (basically made enough to buy more recording equipment and animation software). The past year I've had two decent paying jobs for animation. I don't consistently make enough to live on my own though. I know it's a social stigma to live at home, but I'm fortunate enough to have a family that supports my creative endeavors, and I've never really given a shit out conforming to the standards of society any ways ( I don't date, don't go to bars, don't own a car. I basically spend all my time making music and animation). I'm determined to make a living off of my animation, but If I don't, at least I know I didn't waste the most productive hours of my day being depressed in some corporation, doing tasks divorced from creativity. But in all honesty I'll probably need to work a part time job when I move out, so I'll have a consistent source of income. Animation takes so many hours, I hate the idea of losing even 4 hours of the day to something other than art. I'm not complaining though. We all have to follow our own path.

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What was one of your greates discoverys on the net? (music&film etc.)

I would have never stumbled on "Tago Mago" by Can if not for Youtube. Also, I love listening to video game reviewers. Chills me out while I draw. I recently watched "An Order to Cease Construction" by Otomo (creator of Akira) which I would have never seen if not for Youtube. Youtube is great for finding the lesser known works of artists and musicians.

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Which music does inspire you?

8-bit and 16-bit video game music has a special place in my heart. The music from Bonk's Revenge on the Turbografx 16 makes me feel sad and happy at the same time. I love Sonic for the Genesis. I love the soundtrack to AKIRA. Radiohead is the band I listen to the most. I like Bach for drawing. I get inspired by the sounds in nature and even household appliances like heaters and dishwashers.

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What's your favourite Radiohead song ever?

Paranoid Android was the first Radiohead song that really made me pay attention. I was 8 years old when my older brother bought OK Computer. I would listen to his cool cd's and play his video games while he was at high school (I was homeschooled).
Some other favorites are 15 Step, 2+2=5, Little by Little, My Iron Lung, There There, and a bunch of others.

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