No idea buddy

It’s a curse that I carry as well :/

I've been trying to answer that for myself.

Try harder

Because life is difficult

Are you really hurting them or are they just narcissistic fucks

Sounds like something you'd have to ask a therapist

Don’t ever think you could hurt me when I could forgive you a million times

I think it's unfortunately part of us being human, but here is an article that talks about it who talks about 8 reasons why we hurt the ones we love the most:
https://www.youniversetherapy.com/post/8-reasons-why-we-hurt-the-ones-we-love-the-most
There's so many good points in there.

Hmm, maybe try listening to what THEY think you could do to salvage things if salvageable. If you continue to operate on how YOU think you should fix things you can end up damaging things more. So see what they think needs fixing then come to a compromise on what the solution should be.