Ask @Nullzone42:

Still feel like PAX East was your last PAX?

For now, yes. There was a lot of good conversation had with people I trust on the subject of why, and it helped me frame my headspace on the issue a lot better. I certainly felt a lot better about the show while I was there than I did just 48 hours prior, which speaks a lot to the environment and the people I choose to keep company with while there. People matter.
That said, I need to find my feet, try some other things, and let my vacation time sort of recuperate after the govt shutdown last fall and the obscene number of snow days we had over the winter, so I'm still not coming to PAX Prime this year, though I would still like to make an effort to visit Seattle at some point. Too many people I care about out there not to!
Once I've sort of explored where I want to be, I'll consider PAX East/South next year (though it would have to be one or the other, and East remains the more accessible, so...)

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When was the last time you screamed?

I'm not sure if I've actually screamed since I was a kid. I've gone "FUUUUUUUUCK" as I came up fast on a stopped car before, afraid I would hit it, but I wouldn't qualify that as screaming. Usually if I get to screaming territory I'm probably emotionally hysterical (in both good and bad contexts) and that's not somewhere I want to be, so I try to get out of that headspace as fast as possible, which means I don't scream.

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As you've become more open with how you present yourself to the world, how have you found that's affected you?

Well, certainly I think it makes me a happier person. A friend recently commented as much, too, that I seemed happier in the last few months.
It also has a sort of cyclical effect, in that being more comfortable with my own self helps me be more understanding and sensitive to others' presentation, which makes me more comfortable with myself too.
It doesn't come without its challenges, though; having had long-standing and poorly constructed ideas through childhood of what certain things represent or mean as it relates to gender identity, being at a point where many of those things are being challenged (by myself or others around me) means that the identity construct breaks down and calls into question how I am defined (other than just simply "I am me", which is sufficient but hard to reconcile with other people; self-definition is as much a benefit for those around you as it is for yourself, I feel).

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Okay self, that wasn't very fair to the last anon. How about a real answer?

Nate
Sorry. I have a hard time accepting compliments sometimes. I didn't mean any offense by it.
Really the thing is I'm not trying to do anything awesome or be awesome. I just do my best to be a good person and that's sometimes hard and I don't know why I get weirded out when people think I'm exceptional for it, but I do.
Thank you for the compliment, anon.

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Shall we look for love, wait for love or forget totally about it?

It really depends on your situation I guess? Personally until recently I was more or less in the "wait for it" category; I wasn't like "single forever, woo!" but I was perfectly content being single while still receptive to the idea that someone might come along and knock me off my feet. Now I'm suddenly finding myself in the "look for it" group...which is kind of exhausting in all honesty, takes some getting used to.
And there is certainly no shame in not wanting to interface with romantic love, but I hesitate to say anyone should "forget totally about it" entirely - *I* love you, reader, and I'm sure there are other people who do too. You're awesome, never forget that. <3

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What music artist, that you haven't already met, do you want to meet in real life? Have you met any well known music artist in RL & if so whom?

Well known is sort of subjective, as is meeting in real life. Do you consider going up to an autograph table as "meeting in real life", or is it more running into these people outside of their performer-to-fan dynamic?
If the latter, the most famous people I've done this with would probably be Paul & Storm, but even that was after a show, so they were still in "fan mode" I think.
Who would I like to meet...that's actually pretty tough. I think I'd get a huge kick out of meeting Daft Punk or Blue Man Group.

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Do you play the game Ingress? What are your thoughts on it or other Augmented Reality Games?

I've not played Ingress, not really my thing. I'm not really a personal fan of augmented reality in its current form - it neither allows you to immerse yourself in the fantasy nor applies itself enough to reality for me to accept the world it presents.
Maybe as time goes on and we get to the point where even our basic worldview is augmented (google glass is just a first step!) I might think differently.

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If you could go back & change 1 choice you made that affected another person's life, what would it be?

Hmm, this is a tough question, as I'm not aware of any (divergent) choices I've made that have affected someone else's life in any meaningful way. (That's not me trying to minimize - I think I'm just not very aware of the kind of impact I've had on people a lot of times. It's why it's nice to get a reminder sometimes, whether through a hug/thank you or just telling myself it has an impact.)
Sorry this answer is kind of lame :(

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