THINK RAINBOWS AND LOLIPOPS AND UNICORNS FLYING OVER A POOL OF GUM DROPS :3
;-; I...ok. I just want someone to stay...no matter what..like it's like alexa... But she even you know..sometimes I put too much pressure on her and she just has to leave. Which is understandable..I push too much but yeah. And I've been called annoying and clingy and yeah. Like even one of my closest "friends" told me that I wasn't annoying but behind my back went to my friend and was like "me and (someone else who I shouldn't name) think paige is annoying..do you agree?" Like wtf. I was completely heartbroken and I felt betrayed and idk what it is but sometimes I get this feeling that's like "that's it I'm not gonna talk to her anymore because she only hurts me" but something pulls me back. Maybe it's because she seems like she overpowers me..which honestly pisses me off but I'm like ;-; If I was alone without anyone I would die..you know? Like I lean on people too much and sometimes I wanna lock myself in a metal box without my phone or anything like that and just die you know?