I'm in a really really really bad place... and I'm aware that I need help... but the reasons why it's so bad, is that I won't let anyone help me or accept help at all because I convinced myself that I don't deserve it... on the other hand... it's shame, I guess... I would never let anyone see how bad it is. I'm unable to look into the eyes of someone if they knew the truth, how bad it really is. that would kill me, it would destroy the future we could've have.
I wish I could show you how hopelessly dark, consuming and painful my world is...
specialized in dying
- "this game is cool, you can play it alone or with others. It's so cool. I'm taking the switch with me, when I'm going to my friends"
• "why haven't we played it together? Let's play... ^^"
- " nah, I just like to play this game alone…"
• "then why are you taking it with you?"
- "To play this game with them, it will be fun" … *leaves the room*
Not gonna lie, this was hurtful...
I wish I could say that I'm fine.. but I'm not and I'm so very far from fine…
Wish I could see the doctors…
Isolation got the best of me… I’m sorry.