Fuck.
I don't.
Well not usually.
You see after I broke up with Gabe and what not , I seemed to have lost my way of thinking rationally. I didn't really care. Guys were whatever and sex was taboo. I didn't actually want to be with anyone I was with, I didn't feel anything, I didn't feel like they were good enough, I just wanted some attention for awhile so I just kind of eventually left them all...
I don't feel good about it at all.
And it stopped completely after I started dating Wil.
I've been lead on though, I've been hurt so many times by guys and if its alright for them to go around from girl to girl why is it so wrong for me to do the same to try and feel again? I've never been that girl guys wanted, then when they did want me, oh man.
Why are girls only considered sluts for that though?
It's messed up. I put a lot of my fucked up logic behind it but in the end I still feel like I hurt some people and if I ever got the chance, would love to make it up to them.
In conclusion, I did because I was lonely, insecure and I could.
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