She's so ignorant, mean etc. Those 7 months being with her was the best but WORST days ever. From the start we got on so well, I actually miss those days more than anything. But she turned into such a right selfish, pathetic, ignorant, rude person. She broke up with me at least 11 times, I've lost count. She say's it was like 5, no. It was more than that just because 'she wanted to figure herself out' 'she didn't wanna hurt me' because she was going to parties/out drinking with friends and she didn't want to hurt me if she did anything like kiss people. Which is understandable.....she broke up with me each time, blaming it on me, me sitting on my bed crying my eyes out over her while she's out having a great time or her being her disrespectful self and ignoring me, probably saying all sorts of things about me to her friends. She'd blame it all on me, saying all sorts of pathetic things that weren't true, me being the 'nice person' I am, agreed to everything she said because I was so upset with fighting and arguing every single day. Then the next day she will come back and say it was her fault, that she wasn't thinking straight, that she was going crazy, or whatever the hell she said each darn time. But yes...I went along with it, not bringing up all the time's she had blamed me for everything and bottled it all up. We fought every single day, without fail. I hated it more than anything, but yet...she also blamed me. Then herself. Then I'd bottle it up and move on. Well not really, because after 2 months of not talking to her I STILL THINK ABOUT EVERY SINGLE DAY I SPENT WITH HER. every fight we had, i think about all the crap I bottled up all because I didn't want to see her hurt while she was hurting me! I should of got her back, but I didn't. And I regret that more than anything. I let her walk all over me, I let her control me. And so on. Many people was noticing. Sometimes I hate being the nicer person while the other is treating me like absolutely crap, don't get me wrong- she was a total sweetheart at times, but most of the time she was not. But after months went by, blaming me, bottling everything up, fighting every single day. Something clicked to me that I shouldn't let her keep doing this to me, I cried to many people asking for help and they all said the same thing ''Stop blaming yourself, treat her the way she's treating you, show her a lesson and stand up for yourself, you deserve better.'' So I finally did, after thinking about doing it back to her for months and months, letting everything I had inside- out, while it was still going on. I got her back, I wasn't really the nicer person anymore, but I was nicer than how she acted towards me. I could literally go on forever. But I've moved on. I'm finally happy. I'll forget about her soon, but if you're reading this- no I have NOT forgot about you so shut the hell up and grow up. Stop talking about yourself all the time.
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