Last thing to make you happy?
My crush when She was friendly to me in high school before we had stupid internet drama over me posting about having a crush on her on Facebook I thought those posts were harmless posts, I thought it was normal for high schoolers to make public posts about their crushes, and I ASSUMED my crush was SINGLE because that's what her RELATIONSHIP STATUS said and because I ASSUMED She was SINGLE I thought that gave me the LICENSE to PUBLICLY EXPRESS my LOVE for her on Facebook but then on the last day of my junior year I found out my crush had a boyfriend when She updated her relationship status She FINALLY ACCEPTED my friend request like I WANTED her to do I told her that maybe we should JUST BE FRIENDS DESPITE my PERSPONAL FEELINGS and asked her what kind of music She liked Her response SHOCKED me She told me that I made her and boyfriend uncomfortable This was an awkward situation ALL I was trying to do was RESPECT my crush's relationship with her boyfriend for the sake of remaining friends with her on Facebook and She gave me a hard time for the posts I made about her Those posts probably embarrassed her but that was NOT MY INTENTION and I was NOT TRYING to OFFEND HER BOYFRIEND by those posts as I did NOT KNOW She HAD a BOYFRIEND until She UPDATED her relationship status Yet She lectured me for making BOTH HER AND HER BOYFRIEND UNCOMFORTABLE I TRIED apologizing but She kept lecturing me She made me feel like a HORRIBLE person but TO BE FAIR She told me that She had NO INTENTION of making me feel a HORRIBLE PERSON Which is the NICEST thing She has EVER said to me Sadly She blocked me this broke my heart so I cyberbullied her by saying horrible things about her and making a HATEFUL Facebook group dedicated to her with a picture of her as the group photo EVENTUALLY I STRONGLY REGRETTED cyberbullying her so I took down all my mean posts about her, changed the hateful Facebook group about her to be something else,removed the picture of my crush as group photo and replaced it with a picture of The Missouri Flag, renamed the group "The Stupidest Group Ever" as a PURPOSEFUL INSULT against myself and what the group ORGINALLY stood for, and I PUBLICLY apologized for EVERYTHING I spent 2 years apologizing to my crush on her backup account ONLY for her to block me again so I made backup accounts for the purpose of messaging her out of DESPERATION which made her UNCOMFORTABLE so She called me out for stalking her while I DID COME ACROSS as a STALKER towards HER I did NOT WANT to COME ACROSS that way towards her I decided to GIVE HER SPACE for ALL of 2019 and did NOT message her for all of 2019 and have not had a conversation with her since 2018 I think ALL this drama could have been PREVENTED had I done 2 things #1 Had the COURAGE to have REAL conversations with my crush in high school that way She would know me better and be less quick to judge me and be hard on me #2 Told her that I had a crush on her in a PRIVATE MESSAGE so She would be SPARED EMBARASSEMENT
