I do! I honestly do. I don't like growing old at all. It feels like things that make you feel happy are taken away from you. People will change, your surrounding will change and so do you.
Everyone will expect you as a mature, more responsible grown man who can handle every critical situation smoothly which you clearly suck at. Life will become more complex over time and you can not even complain to anybody because now you are a grown man. Grown man should not complain anything to anybody.
There’s no madness, no stupidness, no childish activities of being growing old. Then why don't I fear growing old?

Last year was magical for me.
Getting my very first job with posting in my favourite city Dhaka, getting the chance to work in my favourite field, completing Masters from Dhaka University, meeting the most amazing person in the world and then finally marrying him.
There have been ups and downs also but Alhamdulillah life was and still is beautiful.

আমি কি আগে কখনো কষ্ট দিয়েছি আপনাকে? যদি দিয়ে থাকি তাহলে ক্ষমাসুন্দর দৃষ্টিতে দেখবেন আর কারো জন্য মনে কষ্ট রাখবেন না।

যাকে দেখলে চেনা ই যায় না তাকে কষ্ট করে চিনে অসুখ সারানোর কি দরকার! কিছু অসুখ থাকা ভালো, শরীরের জন্য উপকারী।

মনে নাই ঠিক। তবে খুব বেশি দিন হবে না। সম্ভবত লাস্ট উইক অফিস থেকে বাসায় ফিরে।

'হঠাৎ ফিরে দেখি
নিজের মুখোমুখি
শূন্য ভীষণ শূন্য মনে হয়
কি আর এমন হবে
কে পেয়েছে কবে
স্বপ্ন গুলো স্বপ্ন হয়ে ই রয়'

There’s no reason. My life my choice

Once I had! Now I have no regret.
There must be some reason to happen every single thing in our life. Sometimes we just can't understand the purpose of happening some certain things.
Everything in our life teaches us a lesson and gives us an experience. That experience leads us to something better. This is what I have learned over the last few years.

Nothing makes me nervous nowadays! I lived my whole life being nervous and all I get is insecurities, doubts etc! At some point I decided to stop this nonsense and be a brave girl. After that things has changed.
Now I imagine the worst case scenario first before doing anything and prepare myself according to that. This helps me a lot.

ফাতেমা আবেদীনের "মৃত অ্যালবাট্রস চোখ"
This book is soo good soo good I don't know how to say so that you can believe!