My favorite piece actually isn’t even hanging up in my house yet! When I move next month, I’ll be finding a place for it though. It’s this painting I found at an art fest last weekend. I think it’s absolutely gorgeous, and with the kinds of furniture and decor I tend to choose, I’m hoping it’ll look great! I cannot wait to put it up. 😄
It really depends. Sometimes, I will talk to friends/family and that cheers me up. Or if I feel I can’t talk, I’ll write out all my feelings. Or, I’ll try to just sit and let myself feel whatever I need to. But… I also know that it can be so hard to just sit in the feelings somedays. Other times, I will try to immerse myself in books, video games, movies, music, or something creative in order to distract me. Or I will do something that feels therapeutic, like baking, taking a warm bath, maybe do some self care. And one of my favorite things to do is go sit in nature in the evening, listen to the birds, to the river nearby, to the traffic, and just try to zone out watching the sunset, in hopes that will bring me some peace.
This is the first year without my step-dad, which in of itself has been SO strange for me. There’s been a lot of firsts, to be fair, since he passed away, having to go through birthdays, holidays, etc… Also, just still very much dealing with all the shock of his passing since it was so sudden, and the grief is still very fresh. So, this whole year has just felt almost warped or like time has been distorted, if that makes sense. I’m also still trying to navigate what life down the road will look like without him, because truly, I still envision him being there, at every major occasion and just like… being involved in everything like he always was. His absence as a whole is just really strange. ☹️
If I’m in front of the camera to get my picture taken, or I’m taking my own picture, I sometimes feel awkward, but mostly unsure of how to pose. I tend to do the same variation of poses every time, unless someone instructs me to do something specific. But on rare occasions, I’ll find new poses I like, or find myself feeling more and more confident as I keep taking photos. 😁 If I’m being filmed, I get nervous, and very camera shy. I tend not to know what to say/do. To me, being in front of a camera in that way, feels the same as being in front of a group of people… I feel like I have to act, or put on a performance, and I can think of almost nothing that makes more anxious than that. Simply put, I just don’t like being the center of attention, at all. 🥴😂
I’d like to think she’d be both overjoyed, and overwhelmed that I’ve made it this far. A decade ago, I truly thought I’d NEVER get the chance to experience or accomplish all I have. Not to mention go above and beyond that. 🥹 Sure, my life hasn’t played out the way I maybe hoped for back then… But to young me, all she’d truly care about and want is the ability carry out and achieve her life long dreams, heal, do what she loves most, and honestly? Just experience life. 🥺 And I’m proudly able to say I’ve done that, and so much more for her in just ten years. 🥹
I feel completely safe and secure in my bedroom. Probably more than anywhere else. It’s calming. And I just feel like it’s one of the very few places that I’m not hyper-vigilant or like, tense. I always know I can relax and decompress when I’m in my room… 😌
Ooo, my absolute favorite kinds of fries are shoestring, and curly fries. I love them so many different ways! I love bacon cheese fries, chili cheese fries, poutine, dipped in honey mustard, horseradish, ketchup, mayo, blue cheese, ranch, or simply… just with salt and pepper! 🤤
I’m content in waiting as long as it takes to find the person who I wanna spend my life with! I’m someone who doesn’t love the idea of casual dynamics, like flings, or non-committal relationships (it’s totally fine if others like it, just personally speaking). If I’m gonna have a partner, I really want it to be where we are both striving for something long-term, and then see how things go from there. 😄Now, I’m not saying I don’t occasionally think “Gosh, it’d be so nice to have a partner right now,” because I absolutely do… But more-so, I just want to be with the right person. I don’t just want anyone simply for the sake of saying I have a partner… Especially if neither of us are actually feeling fulfilled being together, if that makes sense! I just think that a truly healthy, supportive, amazing relationship sounds well worth waiting for. 🥰🥹
I don’t really know directions, in the sense of like road names, and such. I really go off of landmarks more than anything. Honestly, directions as a whole are just a challenge for me, always has been. Know the place or not, I probably won’t be one to give accurate directions. 😅😂Also, I live in a fairly… unremarkable area, one that’s not really a tourist destination, if you get me. 😝 But, it would still be nice when I’m just out and about to have more of a sense of where to go. It’s just something I need to devote more time to learning.
100% yes!! I absolutely love the idea of meeting online friends! I’ve never been able to do it, but there’s some people I currently know of, that I would love to hang out with someday. 😄 The closest I ever got was when I made an online friend a few years ago, and we became super close. We always talked about meeting, even discussed different places we may meet up someday, and what we’d do. But unfortunately, that never happened. I still very much wish I could’ve met them. 🥺
I’m far more sensitive than I used to be, if it’s most any noise outside of my fans running, I cannot sleep... I used be one to sleep through basically anything, but in the last year or so, since living in this apartment, I’ve become increasingly aware of noises. And now most anything will wake me up, sound wise, which is SO frustrating sometimes. What I’ve started doing to block it is using a noise blocker with headphones on, that I found on Youtube. It’s literally called “Loud Noise Blocker • 10 hours” and I’ve been able to block out a TON with it. It’s the only thing that allows me to sleep when my upstairs neighbors are being super loud because it still sounds like a loud fan. Sometimes, I even listen to it when I’m taking a nap, to make sure I’m not jolted awake. 😅😂
I think I would be a bit afraid now, yes. I’m not as good of a swimmer as I used to be, largely because I never go swimming anymore. So I think I’d want a little practice time to get comfortable swimming again in a pool first, and THEN try swimming in the ocean. Just so I’d feel more confident in myself. 😄
I’m excited to find out if my rent application was approved for the place I want, and just to move out of the apartment I’m in. I’m also excited to get all my CE classes done so I can finally renew my Cosmetology license this month. And I’m very much ready for fall, and cooler weather, so I can spend even more time outside. 😄
Oh there’s so many, I can’t list them all. I’m a little late to gaming and all, so I’m still trying to get myself good enough to wanna play various games regularly. Cause playing when you’re just trying to figure everything out and coordinate is tiring for me… But also, I can’t exactly get better if I barely ever play. 😆So here’s a handful of games I wanna try out: -Stray -Genesis Noir -House Flipper -Skyrim -Lapin -Soma -Little Nightmares (1 and 2) -Inside -Unravel (1 and 2) -Firewatch -We Happy Few -Hellblade (and Hellblade 2 when that comes out) -UnpackingAnd that’s just scratching the surface. 😁
Glasses… I want 20/20 vision so bad. I have always had issues with contact lenses, and they are never comfortable, so those were ruled out a while ago. Since I don’t wear my glasses all the time, my vision has, of course, gotten worse. But it would be so nice, especially when out and about to be able to see, cause I very often leave my glasses at home, and then just squint the whole day. 🙈😂
Say you biked to work etc. and there was a big hill in between your home and your destination. Which direction would you've wanted it to be downhill / uphill? Why? 🚴🥵
Well, ideally, I’d want it to be downhill on the way to work, and uphill on the way back home. I don’t really like the idea of being all sweaty before I need to be somewhere, so I’d rather save that for when I’m already going home, and can just shower right after. 😄Also, I have hyper-hidrosis so I sweat more than usual, and way easier, so that also influences my answer. I don’t wanna get to work and my clothes are already getting soaked. I deal with that often enough, so anything I can do to reduce the chance of it happening, I’ll take it! Plus, the thought of being in a hurry to get to work, like if I was running late, and having to pedal HARD to get up that hill as fast as possible doesn’t sound like fun... at all. 🥵😅
I'm curious how common it is for others to be like this too. But after you socialise with people, be it hanging out etc where you talked a bunch with people. Do you, after the fact, get plagued with thoughts about what you said, how you acted, if you spoke too little or too much? It's a struggle hah
This happens to me ALL. THE. TIME. 😅🥴 Especially given I’m so quiet and kinda awkward when it comes to trying to insert myself in groups of people. So when all is said and done, I’m always worried about how fun I was, if I was TOO quiet, or thinking about something potentially embarrassing I said (embarrassing for me that is, I’m easily embarrassed as is 🙈), or wishing I had added something funny/interesting in a specific moment but I was too shy to speak up. Also, just getting plagued with anxiety and I begin thinking that I’m not very interesting, and people won’t invite me to anything cause I don’t contribute much… The struggle is most definitely real, I totally feel you. 😩
I’d rate my bed as a 6/10. Disadvantages would be that it’s fairly old and well used, so it’s broken in at this point. It’s also not super supportive anymore because it’s pretty soft, so when I have pain flares, it really doesn’t help at all. Sometimes it even exaggerates my pain. I’m honestly wanting to get a new bed due to this, cause it really does impact my pain levels, how I sleep, etc. 😅Advantages would be the space I have. I had a period of time where I was in bed basically 24/7 due to illness and I was able to have pretty much everything I needed on my bed at all times. This made staying in bed so much more convenient as I didn’t need to have every little thing physically brought to me, and it’s just nice to spread out! Also, my bed is able to be flipped around, so I go ahead and flip it every few months so I can get use out of each side. And it does provide me with some support so if I needed to stay in bed, I can do it, and it’s not unbearable. 😴
Many, many things! I’m a deeply sentimental person. I could probably list a whole lot more than this, but here’s a few things. 😄-Important dates -Little things friends and family say or do -Pictures/videos -Various items from my childhood that I’ve kept -Souvenirs from trips -Quality time I spend with loved ones -Gifts/cards/letters people have given me -Music/movies that bring back memories of a specific time in my life
🌷 Spring: VERY rainy, and usually quite cloudy and dreary. Starts off being pretty cold, and then very quickly begins to switch to being quite warm. Biggest threat of tornadoes happen this time of year, and often, there’s rather severe thunderstorms. ☀️ Summer: Hot. Very, very hot and typically humid. Though, the last few summers have gotten progressively hotter, and drier. Temperatures this year reached 116°F (46°C) at their peak. There usually isn’t a lot of rain for long stretches of time, but when there is, it can also produce flash floods and severe thunderstorms. These tend to bring the most beautiful rainbows afterwards! 🍁 Fall: Not too hot, not freezing, just the right temperature. There’s always a cool, crisp breeze that feels so refreshing. The sun is sometimes out, but usually there’s at least a blue sky, or it’s peaking out amidst the clouds. There is a possibility of freezing rain, but usually it’s over night, and it melts by early morning. ❄️ Winter: Very gray and cloudy, often snowing, icy, or blizzard conditions, and freezing cold. Sometimes we get freezing rain as well, as like a precursor to snow. Thought the last few winters have not been nearly as severe as when I was a kid and even in my early teens… It seems to get more and more mild every year (aka climate change in action).
Traveling by plane is probably my favorite, most preferred method of travel! I find it fun, and it’s really exciting when I land somewhere I’ve never been before. It almost feels like a nice start point for me, like to essentially branch off from the airport to the airbnb or hotel, and then go from there. If that makes sense! Also, the views from a plane, in my opinion, are so cool! I love looking out of the window and either seeing the clouds, or a random aerial view of the landscape. 😁Trains are also fun, but I really haven’t gotten to experience a whole lot of travel on them, so I felt like I couldn’t pick that as my most preferred method. As for ships and the car, I can’t really say how I feel about that either. Cars are what I tend to associate with everyday transport, more so than actual travel. And while, I’d love to travel by ship sometime, I haven’t. I’m also slightly worried I’d be seasick the whole time. 🥴
I tend to have a hard time asking for help. Usually it’s when I’m struggling mentally or physically, and can’t take care of myself… It’s hard to muster up the courage to ask because I have always been the type of person to battle my way through things alone. And I almost feel as though I don’t even have the language to ask for what I need at times. 😅 I’m trying to change that, it’s just really hard for me to not feel like a burden when I do ask, given the amount of help I need sometimes… One thing I’m trying to do though is remember that having needs is human, and that asking for help is not only for my own good, it’s also beneficial for others too. Nobody can read my mind, or meet my needs if I don’t communicate them… So, in turn, when I speak up, I tell myself that everyone will ultimately reap the rewards of those things being expressed. ☺️
Ooo, I have a few things I’d say… “I will autonomously sleep often, my energy bar be dysfunctional, and drains fast. Some days, even a simple shower will exhaust me. So unless you start using cheats, I’mma be in bed a lot.” 😂😴“Go wild with fashion and makeup, I won’t complain! I love all the heels, dresses, rompers, pantsuits, etc. Also, *hint, hint* red lipstick…” “If you want me to hook up with someone… I would advise against making them super flirty, and moving too fast. I know, I know, it’s the Sims, but the romance interactions won’t work on me. Gotta build that friendship bar gradually, first, and then we’ll see about going further.” 😝“If you can find me a career that is similar to hairstylist in this game, I will be one happy camper. Or you can pretend I’m a hairstylist and just use money cheats… That works too.” “Can you make me a good cook? The foodie in me would certainly enjoy that.” 🤤“I love nature, and nature related activities! So I’d be pleased to live in basically any environment, minus desert conditions.” 😁
What is a trait in someone else/or in general that you'd like to adapt/improve upon within yourself? (e.g. Charisma, determination, confidence, empathy, etc)
Charisma, definitely. I’m a very shy, socially awkward person. I’ve always struggled with communication, though I think I’ve gotten a little bit better at it over the years. But I just find it incredible when people can just make conversation with anyone. And they know how to make it interesting, and keep everyone engaged. And honestly, just well spoken people in general, I’m always amazed by. 😱A person I know, who embodies this perfectly, is my dad. He is an incredible public speaker, has no fear to say what he thinks (within reason, he knows how to speak his mind with tact and kindness), and is so good at creating new bonds/relationships, both personally and professionally. I’ve always been so in awe of his charismatic nature, and how easily it comes to him. I often wish I shared that trait and/or could adapt it to some level... 😄