I would say, largely, yes I’m looking forward to it! My biggest plans are really in May, honestly.

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First, I’m going to both of my cousins college graduations in May, which will take up 2 weeks of the month, as each are separate trips to different states! Alongside that, as a Mother’s day gift, my mom and grandma and I are planning a day trip to see a broadway show. And I also may be seeing my dad/going on a day trip with him, as I haven’t gotten to see him in person for almost a year. So yeah, busy month. 😂

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And then for the rest of summer, I need to start looking into some medical things and being proactive on that. I’m very much NOT looking forward to it, but that’s pretty much the only thing I’m dreading. Other than that, I mostly have things I am aspiring to do/hope to do. Here’s a few of them!

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-Catching up with high school/college friends I haven’t hung out with in a while.
-Gaming
-Getting outside way more often, trying to be more active/keeping my mental health in check.
-Continuing to work on Cosmetology skills I’ve not kept up with/am rusty on.
-Looking back into Barbering school (hopefully).
-Working on creative projects I’ve been neglecting.

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For the most part, I don’t feel any type of way about my age, or people asking about it honestly! Only thing I get a bit insecure about, regarding my age, is my job experience… Due to illness reasons, I don’t have nearly as much as I’d like. I know it’s not a bad thing necessarily, as I can’t exactly control that, but it still makes me uncomfortable. 😅

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One thing I think is interesting though, is to see people’s reactions when I tell them how old I am. Which, the reaction is typically shocked. 😂

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People always think I’m a few years older or younger than I am, and from my observation, it usually has to do with how I put myself together. Like, when I get dressed up and put on makeup, people think I’m older, and then when I just wear comfy clothes, no makeup, etc, people usually think I’m considerably younger. 🤔

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Not too much, to be fair. My only “management” consists of deleting the majority of the shoutouts I receive, minus the odd one here and there that I think is interesting. 🤔

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I don’t really delete personal questions all that often though, unless they are rude, inappropriate, s*xual, etc. and then those get blocked as well. But in general, the personal questions stack up. However, I actually like it that way. It’s fun to have a variety of questions I know I can answer when I do ultimately get the inspiration for them. ☺️

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I only get rid of the typical personal questions I get if I know I don’t relate to them, or if I can’t come up with a fun answer. Usually, I’ll leave them in my inbox for a very long time though, before I ultimately make that decision… To give you an idea, I still have questions I received over a year ago. 😂

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Being treated unfairly always hurts, and can put you in a bad mood, regardless of who it’s by. Obviously, it’s gonna hurt way more if it’s someone you love treating you that way, but even from a stranger, that stuff can really stick with you. 🥺

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I don’t really like the idea that you’re supposed to get to a point where it “doesn’t affect you.” It’s human to care, and to be affected by hurtful things. I don’t think the answer is to harden yourself. I know it affects me. If I’m treated unfairly, having rumors spread about me (even if they are untrue), etc, I’m gonna be hurt… And people can say “get over it” all they want, but it doesn’t change anything. If it hurts you, they don’t get to tell you it shouldn’t.

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Now, with that said, I think what you can do is take people’s hurtful words with a grain of salt, especially if they don’t know you. That’s what I often do. Strangers and even acquaintances opinions of you aren’t facts… They aren’t based in any sort of truth. So I think that is an important thing to take into consideration. Prioritize the opinions of those who truly love you and know you, and beyond that, what YOU know to be true about yourself. And while that isn’t the cure for being hurt by things people say, it can at least take the edge off.

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I hope that helps a little! If you’re going through something like this, I’m sorry. ☹️ You don’t deserve that.

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I’m a survivor of a lot of medical issues/trauma. Much of it, I’m still either trying to heal from, or I’m actively dealing with. Medical trauma has truly been bizarre to work through as you have most random triggers.

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For example, I’m instantly nauseated, scared, anxious, feeling extreme dread, etc by certain sounds, smells, and so on. Like, I despise the smell of rubbing alcohol, alcohol wipes, etc. It brings back way too many memories, and makes me feel sick. But, it’s not exactly a trigger to “heal” from cause one, I don’t really know how to, and two, it’s not like you can really avoid it either. 🥴

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I also get very scared when I have flare ups, thinking I’ll never get past it (even though logically, I know it’s irrational because my flares never stay constant). Or, more often, I’m scared I’ll wind up in situations I was in as a young teen that truly scarred me.

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