I treat my fiends all the same and I have not found my best friend yet
So I think I have a crush on my best friend. But I'm super ugly and he will never like me and it will ruin our friend group. And I dunno how to confirm that I have a crush on him. Or that my friends won't hate me afterwards becuase of it.
True friends would understand talk about it it helps to understand your feeling .keeping it in does not help