steph ✻Latest answers
i decided to open this ask back up for a bit to see if any of my old friends want to talk again. aight? aight.
so. xsteph ✻
i think i'm kind of done playing pretend. i'm deleting my ask tomorrow at 8pm california time. sorry, but i'm just done trying to live in this world of make believe. i need to focus on me and my real life, yanno? anyways, byee.
What books do you plan to read?
"divergent" .. i heard it was good, so.
How many games do you have on your phone?
all of them.
ugh i need to say a few things.steph ✻
number one; i think this is it for polyvore and i. trust me, i do wanna go back online and act like everything's A-okay, but it's not. i'm tired of getting hurt every single time i log on. i'm tired of holding onto this pain that i'm never going to be good enough for someone. i need to start fixing the wombs that polyvore has caused me. i know i act like i'm okay with everything that's happened the past two years, but it fucking stings. every person has left an imprint on me and i need to start the long and painful healing process. i need to move on.
number two; i'm sorry if i've ever hurt you or said something rude to you or just stopped talking to you. sometimes i need to cut myself off from my friends to figure out who i am. and if i've turned you into collateral damage, i'm sorry. you are better than me and better than the things i've done to you.
lastly, if you're even contemplating deleting/leaving polyvore, listen to me - deleting is the easy part, it's the moving on that's tough. and if you find yourself stalking old friends or making a new account, take a day to think about just exactly what you're doing. i know polyvore has a lot of perks, but it also can cause emotional and self esteem problems beyond compare. you shouldn't have to put up with people who don't appreciate you. you will find a day when you never log back into polyvore, but until that day comes - try to have fun with it. do things you like to do. and don't let anyone tell you who to be.
i love you.
- stephanie ♡
What can you do that others can't do?
be a complete ass to people and still expect them to talk to me. :)
What is your favorite thing in your room?
my pillow, holla.
ugh can you get ahold of mom for me?♡ holly jolly♡
yeah, what do you need me to tell her?
okay, i have decided any crushtag notes i get will be replied to on here. ♡
"What happened with you and Harrison?" - we broke up, duh. No, there's more to the story than that and i have time, so why don't i break this down for you. we were dating. i wanted to leave me bootylicious account. i deleted. we still talked on here. we never had an official break up when i wasn't on polyvore. i made a new account (ughfreckles). he asked me if we were together or not. i told him i wanted him to be happy. we broke up. he's dating a girl that deserves him. the end. :-)
Watching Sydney white cx♡ holly jolly♡
ooh, good movie.
i'm doing homework so i'm gonna stop replying for a bit. cx
x okay so. xsteph ✻
today i got a message on my crushtag. i deleted it, but it said "lmao nobody likes you" and the first thing i wanted to do was reply back to it. but what was that going to accomplish? i would still feel like shit ( and angry ) and all it would do is add fuel to the fire. so i decided to delete it because i don't need that negative energy in my life. but i also want to say something to the person that wrote it :
i don't know what vendetta you have against me, but it's obviously not healthy. if you took time out of your day to stalk my profile and comment on my crushtag saying something that is directed to emotionally harm me than you must be under some sort of delusion that this is okay. because it's not. maybe you've seen other people do it and thought it was " cool " to hurt someone's feelings, but it's not. it really isn't. and i'm not just talking about this situation, but i'm talking about any kind of anonymous hate. it's not cool, so don't do it. you don't know what's going on in that person's life and if you do, then you shouldn't be checking anonymous.
at least have the decency to sign your name. or private message the person. or confront them one on one. using public websites to display your cruel words is pathetic and unneeded and honestly, it accomplishes nothing. so what nobody likes me? ooh, i have no friends. dude, i practically preached that in every set. you might think that i think that people like me but you're wrong. i know how much people hate me and i don't need you to point that out. thanks for the note, but it's unnecessary. ♡
sigh sigh sigh. sometimes i think poly relationships are the worst. then again. nope.jason
they seem rewarding at the time, but when you get out of them you're in a world of pain. i have them to keep me busy, to complete some sick fantasy. but that's all they are, a fantasy.
It's okay cx I totally get it cx I only talk to a couple people cx♡ holly jolly♡
i'll talk to you more after dinner.
stephanie. i " deleted " too. i'm just not feeling that whole polyvore thing. ugh drama drama drama.jason
i was just over it, you know? everyone is so angry and takes their anger out on each other. it's unhealthy. and i'm glad i'm not the only one who left that damn place.
Ugh dumb hoes -.-♡ holly jolly♡
don't worry about it.
i don't like this place anyways.
plus i've been to busy / lazy to come online??
i only said goodbye to one person lmao.
Awe Steph xc♡ holly jolly♡
and i got hate on my crushtag like??
woah there, calm your balls. :)
so, if you're following me and you also talk to me on polyvore, i fucking deleted today bc i was already exhausted from people's bullshit, but someone stole my anon (for the second time) so i deleted. i don't care if that makes me immature or bitchy, because i wasn't happy on polyvore. and i don't think i ever will be. then again, don't hold me to my word bc lord knows i'll be back. maybe. i'll try not to because i don't need fake people in my life. i'm done trying, you know. trying to be friends with people and trying to be okay with the fact that it's a one way friendship. so, i guess if you want to talk, ask me questions? i'm not using my kik anymore and i'm fucking done. have a nice day. :-) ♡
Have you ever got into trouble with the police?
What's your favourite chocolate bar?
take 5 bar omg. o':
Who had the biggest influence on you as a kid?
amanda bynes tbfh.