first of all, i would never go to music shows. i'd like to draw lines at the extent i would go for fandom, and even though i've done crazy things, i'm not putting myself through that much effort and suffering anymore. waking up at dawn, waiting for long hours, just for five minutes. people would assume that i'd answer exo, but ah... i'm reevaluating my life choices. i'm much happier stanning them from afar because seeing them upclose makes me think about things i don't want to- are we stressing them out? are they exhausted? they're only human, is it right for us to idolize them like this?
sometimes i think about these and it scares me enough that i take a step back.

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or maybe i should put it like this. i would go to see bangtan, or any other rookie with a tiny fanbase. if it's not crazy, i would consider.