It's really hard to try to help anonymously behind a computer screen when I can't be a good listener XD
I just hope if you ever feel completely alone, you have people you can trust that you can reach out to. Sorry if I ended up troubling you more.
it's fine
I am wondering why you would never consider counseling?
It's none of your concerns. you can stop trying to help.
If you were to get a tattoo today, what would you get and where would you have it placed?
I would get a coloured tattoo of something either on the left side of my chest, or back
are you currently looking for a new girlfriend?
why does that matter.
Also I apologize if my asks which haven't really been questions is annoying! Sometimes I get like that hahahaha probably a part of me will always be like, "oh no, what if I'm useless and bothersome?" but, I can say the more loving thoughts are stronger now.
That's fine ahaha
I cried so much hahaha. But it was good. My mind went from messy scribbles to be more clear. And though it was a process, I'm at a happy place with myself.
Would you ever consider counselling?
Nope
I realized that I was incredibly negative toward myself. Internally I would call myself a loser, that I was worthless and I beat myself up all the time. So my end goal was to be aware of myself so I don't make myself feel like shit and that if I already feel like shit, how to get out of it. LOL
That's basically ahah
My counsellor asked me really hard questions, like why I was there, and whether I really needed to see her. I thought, "because like a cartoon, my mind is full of scribbles, I don't know who I am anymore, and I don't know if I ever did, and I need your freaking help??" She asked about my end goal.
Okay
That hole was still there, and I was getting worse because I was filling myself with others' problems, and giving of myself to the point I had nothing left to give. My give bucket was empty and so was my heart. I thought, this can't be my normal! So I let go my pride and got counselling. That helped
That's good that it helped ahah
I used to think that adults just aren't as happy... because I wasn't and I couldn't love myself. In that time I did everything I could to help other people to fill the hole in myself because I could tangibly feel that I could love, and I would receive the love of others. But that hole was still ther
I'm still like that.
I really hope you can find your yourself. When was the last time you were truly happy? What did that look like? That's who you really are. I really hope you find the love within yourself. No one else can do that for you except for you. You are lovable. Believe it :)
I was truly happy when I was with someone, but if you're asking about me being happy on my own then I don't remember. Maybe I haven't been truly happy all my life.
You have a lot of lovable qualities. You're very kind and go out of your way to help your friends when they need you. You're athletic, a good looking guy, hard working, and diligent. You have great perseverance even in an environment where you're struggling. This is you. These qualities are you.
This is really kind of you to think so. Thank you.
Since you believe in karma, do you believe what we put out in the world is what we receive?
Karma is the law of cause and effect. What you do and how you think dictates where you will go. Ex: the mindset of negativity will only hold bitterness in their heart. Then words & actions come from darkness
Yeah basically
Did you ask her yet??
ahaha like I said. It's complicated
Do you have a girlfriend? I saw you holding hands
It's complicated. Technically no. We're currently just friends that like to hold hands ahaha...
Do you believe in karma?
Yeah
Do you believe in God, or a higher power of some sort?
Nah not really
Why is that funny?
because there nothing to love
Gotta love yourself :)
ahahahahahahaha you're funny :)
If you were depressed, what would help you the most?
ahahahahaha so far nothing. I do a lot of activities to get things off my mind