Yes, in fact.. thats kind of what the situation of my love life is now. I thought to myself that i would never want to be in love again because im so worn out from the past. But theres this girl, she's different. She made my heart melt so effortlessly with her just being her and what made me fall in love is how she takes good care of people and the way she talks, her personality, very private to herself and i love that. I am introvert myself so its really nice to see that even so, she can be really fun to talk to. She does not nag often but its cute when she does, i often find myself smiling in awe when she does nag. She's really funny too.
She's amazing, i never i could love again but she changed my heart in a snap. But when i gathered enough guts to ask her out, she rejected it the 3 times i asked. So i figured that she really just not into me so i dont open topic anymore. Dont get me wrong, i do love her still. All the still there and all those dream of building a family and spend the rest of my life with her will never ever come true. Its not that i give up but i dont wanna push her over the edge by asking anymore because it might just spoil what we have althought its not as close as what i wish us to be. Better this than nothing. But how i wish we could be more. Too bad im not that lucky, i mean i know that im really bad person, god knows, i dont deserve her, im not mad at god for such fate. So here i am, still in love with the most amazing person i ever met, the only one i wish that would be the mother to my kids, but i guess it will only remain as just a dream. That doesnt mean i should ever stop loving her. Im glad that our path crossed.
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