My boyfriend and I have had a long, up down relationship. Over time we have both have our wrongs, but he tends to make choices that are selfish and meet his wants at that very second, despite me or “us”. I usually get very emotional (he messes with my PTSD) and act out and he blames me for all of it
It doesn't have to be like this, don't let your life go by while you are unhappy. Someday you might regret the good things you missed.