@insanevanity

Nur Syazwani

Type a long message to cutters maybe?

I've been cutting a long time ago. And I came to realise that doing it over and over again, doesn't help. I sure don't wish to be in the same cycle of cutting, I too want to be happy. But I realised one thing that was stopping me from being happy and smiling again was the fact that the razors, the blades, and the blood that trickles down my arm, have become my best friend. It's such a sick thought and thing to do. But then again, I realised that the only person that's making me so depressed, is myself. If I didn't think too much, and too negatively over every little thing that happened and accept how it is just like that, I wouldn't be cutting. Besides, I don't want to see my loved ones crying and blaming themselves for not being able to do something about it. BEcause, I was the one who pushed them away. I was the one who pushed any help, any love, any concern given, away. If there's any one to be blamed for, it was me. Me alone. And because of that, I decided, two weeks ago, to throw all my razors an blades away. You'd feel so lodt without them at first, but hey, it's a new start. You're making progress. Don't be tempted to cut. Resist the temptation. Because you know you're on your way to a smile on your face. A genuine one. And I hope what I've typed, can save some lives. Or at least, make those who cut smile. You are not alone. I love you. I won't judge you for cutting. Cutting isn't a form of addiction, cutting is a loud scream, a scream that you want everyone to hear, but you don't want them to hear, at the same time, a scream for help. That's why blades are your best friend. But be careful now, blades aren't your best friend at all now, they've made your loved ones sad and mad, at themselves, for not being able to let you cherish your life. For not making you smile. You see... blades make the ones who love you, sad. You're not destroying yourself. You're destroying your loved ones too.
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