What is the last thing you do before bed?
I wonder. I wonder would it be better if I was there knowing things will end this way and still hoping. Hoping that life will sense or things will get better or bearable for her or for me. I wish i could be just there telling her that you'll survive, even if I knew she wont. I wish i could make her little more happier or loveable in her last days. I am sorry I couldn't be there present with you physically. Idk how i am supposed to live with it but I hope wherever you are , you are in peace. Peace that you could never found here in your life.