In the planning stage of a book, don't plan the ending. It has to be earned by all that will go before it. An unerring life theory maybe.

It was once hope.

I wish to buy back some part of my past. Pain is so disconcerting.

I am a man of integrity and man of deceit. I am known for my morality and essence of my wilderness. I am a keeper of congenial relations and and custodian of hatefulness.
There are no good men or bad man. Man is who he choose to be.

We cant spend our lives letting the world having a second guess on who we are. It's too risky. It has to be us formulating an image, an inspiration of who we want to be. We are too weak in our heads. It has to be taken care of. The mind focus on what you command it to focus on. Give it more time and u would eventually conclude how a happy and independent state of mind can aid in every day life. 21st century thank you. Deleterious times.

"Pretend that you have free will. It's essential that you behave as if your decisions matter, even though you know they don't. The reality isn't important: what's important is your belief, and believing the lie is the only way to avoid a waking coma. Civilization now depends on self-deception. Perhaps it always has."
- Ted Chiang

We all pay for our choices.

We all have different means to define what love is. Mine just happens to be more of a unconditional predilection and affection which ltimately makes it a divine decree I guess.