I'll start with why he didn't want to be a captain anymore. Silynn was decided to be the captain since the beginning of the year because nobody else at the time wanted to be it except Kaoru. He was a happy person. I met him at Horo's local train station and we went to fanime together which was half a year ago. Whenever I looked at him he was always smiling. I remember he would one try insane 10.3 maps on his laptop and he would be smiling the whole time. When we were in a hotel together, I remember waking up and seeing him on his laptop smiling while typing in skype. I was always in contact with him and knew what was going on. Things happened and I got really mad for no reason. I'm embarassed to even say what happened but after that we weren't friends anymore. The girl he said he loved got a different boyfriend. He started working 5 days a week which is a huge jump from having no responsibilities. He took a long break from osu and after trying to play again he would get physically sick from playing it. "literally it makes my body so weak that i get stuck in bed for 3 days" he says and another testimony says he coughs because of osu. People started badmouthing Silynn for not saying anything about who is playing in owc when they never directly asked. He was sick of the badmouthing and said people should just forum pm if they want information. I got extremely mad at him due to a misunderstanding and I submitted a roster. This further aggravated him because he had to sort out the deal saying that the team was a fake. After it was sorted out Loctav mentioned that Silynn was the one who caused the problem and not me. I could understand being mad then because I would hate it if fingers were pointed at me for something that someone else did. You can also expect disrespect from the people were were in that roster who aren't in the roster now (the roster I submitted on a whim had four people not on the current team). The last week before registration submission he said he didn't want to play anymore and I think it was because of all of the above. These days he just isn't on osu or skype anymore. I checked his pixiv and he is still active on there. After he went afk from skype and osu someone mentioned he was still active in pad. He was on Horo's teamspeak but someone mentioned something to make it sound like his appearance is rare. I'm not sure if I said too much but I reread it a few times and I think I'm not saying anything too private. I don't know if I would say his actions are justified but I can definitely say he has his reasons.

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tl;dr He is feeling depressed.

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After thinking for a bit, I used pielak only in osu, RotMG, and games related to PSun. Some other names are HBSmaster, Gay Douche, Bag of Berries, RenaiCirculation, Weed Circulation, spammeracc, i bMad Scientist, Bronze Disco, pielik, Jezuslak, Peelack, Pielak, Godlak, Fjuslak, Fkjushsym, Tiaralak, Qqqera, Pooplak, Pislak, Poolack, Jewlack, Deflack, Fklak, Fedlak, Shtlak, Coolak, Joolak, Deuslack, Thejulak, Hilak, Cowzlak, Sslak, Lllak, Choolak, Doolak, Lewalak, Lollak, Xxxlak, Sinelak, Orlylak, Gglak, Zzlak, Weedlak, Ohemglak, Icelak, Fkdisgmlak, Tomblak, Nulak, THELAKLAK, Qtlak, Ahrilak, Zerotrelak, Lewalakw, Dblak, Piepielak, Cookiezlak, Ggggggglak, Whylick, Julickin, Sirfkulak, Sleeplick, Coollicks, Machlock, Yolicks, Nonamelick, Dancelick, Liklick, Ihatehwlol, Umoklicks, Yulikelak, Draccolick, Kaorulicks, Shelicks, Vjucelick, Cookieziii, Herlicks, Riilicks, Licklak, Dontbanlak, Killinlick, blackslinger.xd, pielak213, Wet Wet, 4L;, LemMeTapDat, real pielak, Jimmy Bowen JimmyBowen, m2u, suguriP, Suguri P, Suguri no Pantsu, スグリnoパンツ, Suguri Pアンツ, ２１３, pielak420, pielak213-, pielakhehehe, g, p, z, yoyoyowasup, pleaselak, and MANY more that I would rather not say because they're really bad oh god x.x I just realized I also use pielak in kancolle

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To be completely honest I've had similar thoughts to this. Sometimes I act really high and mighty then 5 minutes later I hate myself for it. I hate everything that comes out of my mouth that is about me because it feels like I'm bragging. If I reveal information about anything it feels like I'm bragging. If I withhold information while saying I have it it feels like I'm bragging. There are many variations of this. I hate reading English ask.fm profiles because everyone seems to be bragging. I actually pretty much hate every word out of anyone's mouth. Asking for a favor feels like I'm taking advantage of someone's hospitality. Typing all of this out makes me think someone will read this and think I'm pouring my heart into this answer and hate me for it. Everyone seems to be taking a role in life and every possible role has been thought of and nobody is unique. It feels like everyone is an actor acting out their roles. I made a forum game thread in the osu forums where someone has to post a completely unique sentence. This relates to everything I said before but the line of explanation is too long to type on my phone. I am the worst writer. I have so many things in my head that I often skip important parts in my line of thought and it comes up as unconnected sentences.

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This is why I try to keep my talking to a minimum. Watching myself drunk was one of the worst but funny experiences ever because it's so cringing.

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I finally decided to watch mekaku city actors and I got a good idea for my skin.

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