nothing is hard to find when you can easily get information on the internet, as long as you're patient enough or - just by chance (yes, that's my case.) it had affected me many years prior to that and yet i didn't aware of its danger 'til a year ago. Somehow, some way, i believe i still have the ability to handle its side effects.

It’s okay to ask, really ( what truly bothers me is to see people foolishly take it for themselves as if it's sth fucking cool to show off.), just don't treat me like a patient, mental illness can be a part of me but it doesn't define who i am.