I know someone who watches seth goes to uga and I don’t wanna run into them just Incase this happened, my face was red as heck and everyone was teasing me and calling me Hollywood and was like “ not only are you rich but you’re famous” which I’m neither, then seth brings up my birthday and I went real quiet because I’m not feeling it this week, so now I have birthday plans for nola this weekend, Emily and all them are going and I texted lauren and asked if she wanted to go but she hasn’t answered, after we went to Hannah’s and Dylan’s chilled and now seth and I are at our apartment and gonna hang so night y’all.
YALL I’m beaming so this morning at like 1030 is I get a text from seth that says “what are you doing” so I was like “nothing I’m chilling in my dorm” and he goes “come outside” so I go outside because ??? And he’s there, not to be dramatic or anything but I literally felt those sense of relief that I haven’t felt in a week now and I gave him the biggest hug like you already know and I may have cried a little bit but we go up to my dorm and we’re catching up and he’s telling me my mom snitched on me to him, she asked him if he had time to come to georgia to check in on me because I’m not doing good and so after we were done talking for like 15 he’s forcing me to go to breakfast which I don’t want to because I don’t wanna leave my dorm but he made me and told me I have to drive or we’re walking so we drove and we went to the best place in Athens, mamas boy and we talked me and he’s telling me how will is gonna be in Nola tomorrow night for a week or so which I’m ???? So now I’m sad because I’m not gonna see will. And I snitched on Ian do going mia on me and how it’s hurting my feelings and seth is telling me it’s because him and his boyfriends/sugar daddies are like having the time of their life and seths only talked to ian maybe twice. But after breakfast seth made me go to our apartment and we did a desktop stream for a bit and literally so many people were shook that their fav streaming duo was back together ugh amazing, then we did a little bit of irl and went to Arden’s garden for some smoothies and just walked around downtown and seth made me carry the backpack / hold down the stream for a bit and I wanted to cry the bag is literally 30 pounds it’s so heavy and seth said all the money we make from the stream today I can keep so that’s fun, so downtown Athens had a bunch of boutiques and stuff so we went in there, bought some clothes, and one of my favorite stores is urban outfitters which they have in downtown so we went there and I spent some money oops, so we irl a bit then we went back to our apartment around 3 and Emily texted me like she does every night asking if I wanna go to dinner at clocked so I asked seth and he goes yeah so I was like sure but I’m gonna bring my friend so seth and I did desktop stream and Seth played a game with will & u already know I called this boy out for not telling me he’s coming to the us. But at 5 we ended the stream and showered and got ready and dinner was fun until someone comes up to us and goes “yo seth and guliana can I get a picture” I wanted to crawl under a rock, this is only like the 6th time this has happened but it wasn’t near friends but Seth and I are like okay so we take the pictures and he’s talking to us and he’s like i was watching the stream earlier and I live right outside Athens, like 10 minutes and you guys said you were eating here so I decided to come by and say hi and he left after thank god he didn’t wanna chill like the other people have, and I’ve been dreading this bc pt 1
lauren moved into her dorm at nyu today, I can’t wait for updates from her tomorrow
Yell I found the kid from blackbears music video and I was right, he’s cute. But what are the odds him and a girl from are you the one are friends ++ on each others stories rn +++ she’s in the music video too wow
hot girl bummer slaps but all I wanna know is wHO TF IS THE BOY SITTING NEXT TO BEAR IN THE MUSIC VIDEO?? HES SO CUTE !
So today I only watched like two episodes of 13rw so I’m only half way through episode 7 but I know who kills Bryce and I’m kinda shook, also I hate ani she’s so annoying & she’s in everyone’s business, but y’all I was supposed to go to the farmers market today but like I had no motivation to go but Jacob brought me flowers and fruit and I almost cried it just means a lot they he listens when I talk, idk probably gonna go to bed soon so night y’all
I hate ani, she’s so annoying omg, also looked up a spoiler for 13rw and I did not think this person would’ve k*lled Bryce wth, shook
I looked ugly today again :)) had a hard time getting out of bed to go to class too but thank god it was a short day so I didn’t have my first class until 10 and my last class ended at 12 so I got to go back to my dorm and binge 13rw, Justin & Alex are cute, love them. And Jacob brought me pancakes from Waffle House but I didn’t eat them, I gave them to megan. Tomorrow is the farmers market and I wanted to get fruit and flowers but I don’t think I can bring myself to going so that’s fun. Oh and seth and I haven’t talked bc he’s too busy in Missouri helping his sister Lara get ready to move into nyu the 25th I think so he hasn’t streamed either. Idk gonna go back to watching 13rw then sleep :) night
I just woke up from a nap but I wanna fill y’all in on my day, we all know my Thursday schedule so I’m not going over it but when I woke up this morning my face was swollen so much like I look horrible, I couldn’t even bother to look cute, i literally didn’t wear makeup and I put my hair in a bun, wore my glasses and called it a day, I literally wore biker shorts and a uga shirt like how ugly, in astrology my feelings got hurt because kai said I looked horrible not that I care about his opinion it just hurt my feelings and Emily is such an angel she asked me if I was okay and told me she’s there for me if I wanna talk but ask soon as I said thank you I almost cried, at like 415 ant called me and told me he’s okay and he went to go see his car and pretty much she hit the backseat door so hard her license plate is jammed in his door, and that he’s lucky because if she hit his door he probably would’ve died or been seriously hurt and I went into full on crying mode because I could’ve lost him and I’m grateful he’s okay, but I’m just so numb at the minute I haven’t talked to anyone but my mom and ant, I’m not leaving my dorm except for classes and I’m scared I’m gonna get really bad like how I was when j passed and if I get like that I don’t have anyone to help me get out of it, and I know these are two different situation but it’s just the fact and thought I could’ve lose someone I love last night and I have ptsd from j so having something so close to what happened to how she passed is just overwhelming for me, my journal is wild from today and last night, and I wanna go to seth and is apartment to really be by myself but I honestly don’t have motivation to get up. I’m going back to sleep, goodnight
so I’ve had a hard day, it’s wild It’s been a week of classes already. But I’m not gonna tell you about the first half of my day because we already know my classes on wednesdays, I need to talk about this before I freak out again so went to dinner with emily and all them and around 6 I got a call from anthony and I thought it was weird but I stepped outside to answer the call and I’m that moment I answered it felt like my world stopped, I blacked out, I just remember ant asking where I was and if I was okay and that he was in a car accident and he just kept repeating that and I was panicking because this brought up that empty like broken feeling, I can’t explain it but it felt like my world stopped, Its the feeling I got when I got the call that my bestfriend was in a car accident and she passed, so feeling those emotions then these new ones I felt numb, but I probably looked wild at Waffle House because I was on the phone with anthony and I went back in to ask for emily’s phone so I could call his mom and I remember going back outside and being on the phone with anthony and calling his mom from Emily’s phone freaking tf out and I’m telling her and I’m telling her what I know which isn’t much and I’m like call the police like what if no one did, but he was near his house so his mom got there first and she took his phone from him and he was just asking for me and we hung up and I’m crying outside Waffle House ffs and she ends up sending me pictures of his car and it’s ruined, I mean the back windows of his car we’re all shattered and in his car / all over the ground, the trunk was hit so hard it was dented so much / it like opened and his tire was half off and a girl went through a stop sign and hit the back of his car so he spun and went into a phone pole so hearing that and seeing that pictures made me cry more, and his mom called me back when he was on his way to the hospital that they had him laying in the middle of the road with a blanket over him and he was in such shock, his eyes weren’t normal and he thought I was there or something and he kept asking for me, my heart hurts, so after being that I gave emily her phone back and idk what I said because I was in such shock but next thing I new I was in my dorm balling my eyes out and talking to my mom on facetime and I truly felt like I couldn’t breathe and all I wanted was my mom and I was gonna drive home to bc but she told me to write about it so I did that in my diary then take a shower and sleep so I did that then cried myself to sleep, and I just woke up now at 10:12pm and I started getting worked up so I’m writing this here so I don’t have 3 more pages in my journal about this, but I have no updates just a bunch of texts and missed called from everyone which I appreciate but I can’t talk to them right now and I’m balling my eyes out again but I can’t think again and this doesn’t feel real and I’m feeling really numb so I’m gonna cry myself to sleep. Goodnight.
guess who is in their feelings once again 🤡🤡
I’ve had the wildest day, firstly I woke up this morning and remembered an impulsive decision I made at 3am last light, I bought 761 dollars worth of clothes from nasty gal and it wasn’t even a ton of things it was just 40 items, so I’m a little speechless about that. Anyways on tuesdays I’ll normally have lab for my astrology class from 8:00am - 10:45am But we don’t start that yet so then I had psych from 11:00am - 12:15pm then I got food with Emily and kai because we had our next class together which kai was talkative today which I was shook about but he just bullied me the whole time we ate then we walked to class together and my next class was astrology from 12:30pm - 1:45pm, and I made a joke to kai about him actually showed up and he just bothered me all class, he sat behind Emily and I with his friend and the whole time he was kicking my seat and pulling my hair, so I think he hates me less now bc I’m pretty sure emily bullied him about being rude to me, so then my next class was English from 2:00pm - 3:15pm that was great + it was my last class of the day, so then I chilled for a bit after class and there was a party type thing for the sororities & frats because Jacob invited so I went there at like 1130-12 idk somewhere near there, but it was fun, met a bunch more people and I hung out with Jacob a lot, like 99% of the time, took tons of pictures, also I think Jacob and I were flirting I’m not sure, I’m kinda tipsy, any who, I WAS wearing a white shirt and mr kai seeing how much of a bully he’s been today poured his drink on me, got all over my hair and shirt and idk what it was but it had color and I think my shirt will be stained, I was mad so I swilled him back, any who once again I my shirt looked gross so Jacob being the angel he is walked with me to his frat because he lives there and his frat was right there and so kindly loaned me one of his shirts, he also kept my shirt because I didnt wanna hold it, so we go back and I swiller kai again and he stopped because Jacob told him to, which then kai kinda got pissy but like who cares you started it, but I wanted to go home like 40 minutes later but I walked there because everyone did and I was scared to walk home (which is weird because I lived in New Orleans and stayed out all night but also had seth and Ian, speaking of nola I miss them and my other nola friends :(( ) so I hit up my favorite boy jacob and was like wanna give me a lift I’ll owe u big time, also it was ending at lien 2:30 anyways but I’m now home safe all because of good guy jacob, its 2:32am, got hydrated and I got home like 10 minutes ago, and I texted jacob and told him to get home safe and to text me when he’s home even thought I told him when I got out of his car because I care about my friends and I never wanna lose a friend again and I wanna make sure they get home and it hits home and I’m sleepy so goodnight, have a good day tomorrow.
YALL I made it into the sorority I wanted I’m so happy and grateful and I love everyone, literally when I looked at my card at Tate and it said guliana ——- we invite you to join ( my sorority ) I screamed so loud my throat still hurts, like everyone screams once you look at your card and see the sorority you’re in and that was cool to be apart of, but then we took a bus to our sorority house it was 7pm I think and it was raining so some of the girls were soaked but when you get off the bus your sorority is cheering and it’s loud because they’re happy you’re apart of the sorority and we’re all screaming because we’re excited so it was really great, everyone I met I love so much, everyone is so kind. And We took so many pictures, my hair looked probably horrible because it was curled in loose beach waves because that’s how I always curl my hair duh but my hair naturally is curly so it being wet kinda ruined it a bit, but Hannah is in a different sorority so that sucks but it’s all good and megan my roomie is in the same sorority as me, how exciting?? Oh and they give you stuff!! Shirts, hats, cups, pins yknow that type of stuff so I’m cherishing it forever!!! I’m gonna remember this day forever, it was amazing. So then we just celebrated then went back to my dorm after, showered tonight so I can recurl my hair in the am & got ready for bed, megan and I talked about the day & watched a movie and now I’m heading to sleep, goodnight.
guys I’m so nervous I can’t even eat anything, I only have two classes on Monday math and Phil like Wednesday & fridays so thats good but I just got back to my dorm and omg I’m gonna wash my body then get dressed, redo my makeup idk, hang with megan or someone else on my floor who is rushing until probably 5:55 pm because we have to be at Tate for 6pm to find out which sorority we’re in, omg I’m so nervous literally less than 5 hours , omg omg omg wish me luck !! And y’all once I put my white dress on I’m not drinking or eating anything because I’m so nervous because I’ll probably spill / drop it on me
round three house tours was great, all the houses are cute!! And after it was over Hannah sent me a text saying how cute I loved & that just made my day much better, tomorrow is the last round and that’s pref round I’m really excited & I had dinner with emily,Jacob,Hannah,Ethan and kai and im so embarrassed, we were talking about how this girl is in love with Jacob and like crazy for him and he was telling us how she was texting him paragraphs today anyways to the embarrassing part as he’s telling us I go “ monkaS mate” if you don’t know monkaS is streaming slang and they just looked at me like wtf so I go “these fries slap” and Emily asked my what drugs I was on and I was like none but then they went back to talking about it and I’m just sitting there HATING MYSELF like why did I say that, streaming over the summer really just ruined me, anyways back to my dorm, showered ( which every time I go to shower I almost forget my caddy it’s v annoying ) then megan & I watched a movie together, but I’m going to bed now bc ur girl is tired asf, night.
yall so today I got breakfast at Bolton with megan and this girl taylor she lives on our hall and so I’m eating my bagel drinking my coffee and all of a sudden I get a FaceTime from William and my heart was bursting with happiness and joy bc I’m over here in love with will and haven’t talked to him in a hot minute so I was that b and put my airpods in and facetimed him while eating and ignored my friends but they didn’t mind bc I told them why it was important to me lol but my face was hurting from smiling so much, I love will, and will and I were talking and flirting and I told him he needs to come to America and visit because I miss him so much, it was the highlight of my day. But then I had math from 10:10am - 11:00am then I had 15 minutes until my next class so I facetimed seth and I made an appearance on his stream and and everyone in the chat kinda missed me and I kinda missed just talking to them because the chat is always funny and most of them think I’m funny and great so it works out but that was also a highlight of my day, next class I had was philosophy from 11:15am - 12:05pm and after class emily & i got lunch together but she had another class so I just went back to my dorm and chilled then around 5 emily texted me and asked if I wanted to get dinner with her and everyone so I said yeah and I rlly like this group of people, they’re all just great, but I talked to Jacob a lot, he’s really nice & I talked to Hannah a lot too because tomorrow is round three aka house tours and I was asking her what I should wear with the shirt ( because they give you a shirt to wear ) and how I’m touring her sorority house and how her sorority and another sorority are my top two and all that, but today was good and I can’t wait until tomorrow. goodnight :)
I wanna go with, so I think when frat beach comes around I’m going with them. But pretty much they’re all great, then we hung out at Dylan and Hannah’s apartment and played cards against humanity and drank until 130am ( okay yes I know I just met them but I’m also dumb and got a great vibe from them plus I’m a-ok , I like to do wild thing out of my comfort zone ) and then kai drove Emily and I back to our dorm because we’re all in the same building and I literally go “ thank you for the ride, I appreciate it a lot” and I kid u not he looks at me and ignores me I felt so awkward, but I just took a fast show now I’m heading to slee at 2:40am, cute. Night.+1 answer in: “What do you think, where isn't spot for humor?”
y’all today was so tiring so I can’t even imagine tuesday when I have four classes. Tuesday’s and Thursday’s are my busiest days. So today my first class of the day was psychology from 11:00am to 12:15pm and I love my professor she’s so funny and she’s gonna make this class amazing. Then my next class was astrology from 12:30pm - 1:45pm I mean my professor she’s alright, I can’t judge her off only today. But this class has things to offer I met this girl today named Emily and astrology is a big class there’s like over 200 people and I was sitting kinda in the middle but more towards the back and what are the odds she was sitting in the row behind me, and she pretty much said she liked my dress and moved into the seat next to me and was asking where it’s from so I tell her where, I’m like it’s the Venus dress from realisationpar, and she looks up the dress then and there and goes “did you really spend $210 on the dress” and I’m just sitting there quiet because in reality one of Ian’s bf/sugar daddies gave him money and Ian and I went on a big shopping trip online and I bought 14 more dresses from there which was close to 3k it was like $2,800 so I kinda don’t wanna wear the other dresses on thursdays, but then after class we were walking together and she asked me where I was going and I was like “ oh to my dorm I need something” and yadayadayad she asked me what dorm and she was heading there too because she was like “oh I live there too but my friend kai he’s in our class and he’s still sleeping so I’m gonna wake him up” like I just wanna know how someone is gonna be missing class already?? Anyways she then gave me her number and was like “ I’ll text you later and you can come and eat with my friends and I later around 6ish” so I got what I needed and I headed to my final class of the day which was English and that was 2:00pm - 3:15pm and I love my professor omg she’s great!! But I just hung out with some of my hall mates I’ve kinda became friends with, then around 6 Emily texted me and she was like “I’m walking to clocked wanna walk with me?” so we walked there because It was like 5 minutes away and so I met Emily’s boyfriend ethan he’s a sophomore and In a frat, then his friend was there Jacob and he’s in a frat and a sophomore and kai who showed up late is his brother and he’s rushing then there was a girl Hannah she’s a sophomore and she’s in a sorority that’s in my top three and her boyfriend Dylan who is a sophomore and I don’t think he’s in a frat I think he’s just there chilling like Emily. And Emily made me apart of this group and made them all give me their numbers and I’m like I just met y’all today this is wild. And I was getting sht on by all of them because Emily brought up my dress so then I literally was telling them about how it was Ian’s sugar daddy/boyfriends money not mine, which that didn’t help with the jokes. Then they started taking about frat beach and I told them I’m in and they better save a room for me bc Pt 1+1 answer Read more
okay I wanna tell y’all about my day, on Wednesday’s I only have two classes which is math from 1010am to 11 which my professor he’s alright then after class went to Bolton for some food and to get work done but my next class is at 1220pm to 110 and thats philosophy my professor is amazing, she’s gonna make this class good I just know it. I met so many people it’s kinda great. Then tonight went to dinner at Bolton with megan then some people on our floor and then we went to this hypnotist show, that was fun then kinda hung out the rest of the night, kinda boring today.
tomorrow is my first day of classes, wow can’t wait, kinda wild, do I wear my glasses and look like a Librarian or be cute without them, guys I can’t wait to meet new people ahhhb I’m excited
ilysm omg rush is going amazing!! Today was the second day of the philanthropy round, I’m meeting so many people it’s kinda insane. But rush is on hold until Saturday because of class & Saturday is round three and that’s house tours so I’m touring my favorite sororities and the girls who get invited back get a T-shirt to wear so I gotta figure out how to style it, but I have my top three so that’s all I care about and I know I shouldn’t but like I really love one and then I like the other two, but they keep inviting me back so obviously they like me. also I literally didn’t get the memo that platform sandals are so popular at the sororities at uga so I literally bought so many bc I was like they’re so cute?? But also now that I’m thinking of it I think I put my nola address on for them to get shipped there, oops??
y’all okay I’ve made it to round two which was today, it was pretty dang good ( and since I wasn’t clear yesterday when I said round two yesterday I meant round two of round one ) and round two is the Philanthropy round and ( my three favorite sororities where today) and I really love their philanthropy’s, but I guess I’ll have to see how round two of philanthropy’s is tomorrow and maybe I’ll really love other sororities philanthropys. I hope I get invited back to my top three for round three. Idk. But I start class the 14th so recruitment stuff wont continue until the 17th so I’m hoping I can get some work done for seth. Also all I can think about is will, like he’s on my mind 24/7, I miss my newcastle lad so much and we’re so flirty to each other when we talk like what
round two was good,after meeting all the sororities I have two I really like but there’s one I really love, but I got invited back to all three tomorrow and obviously other ones but today in its entirely was just so good, megan and I get along rlly good ( and we like the same sororities & she got invited back to them so imagine if we get into the same one? Iconic ) I’ve already met a ton of people, and when Megan and I are in our dorms we just leave the door open so if anyone wants to make conversation. And y’all omg so my floor has both boys and girls but obviously different halls and omg I’ve seen like three cute boys just on my floor imagine the other cute boys on the other floors and dorms wtf, I love boys. Also forgot to say this yesterday my mom made me lower my bed because she said knowing me I’ll break my ankle because I’m a clutz so it’s like in the middle, it not all the way up or all the way down - if I sit my feet won’t touch the floor so I got a little hop still and this morning I was half asleep when I woke up and when I hopped down I kinda landed on the side of my ankle and now my ankle kinda hurts but oh well I’m tough. Oh and I’m having such will withdrawals it’s not even funny, I’m actually in love with him but it’s kinda hard because home boy is in the ik + I haven’t talked to ian in a bit so I’m rlly missing him and same with Seth I miss my boys + Simon. I think my boys need to come and visit me. Also I didn’t even realize but explain to me how I brought all seths revenge clothes I stole, I thought I had them in Nola so I’m confused on another level. Oh and already used up one disposable camera + I have so much work to catch up on for seth, if he finds out how far I’m actually behind he’ll be fuming and I think I lost a house for him because I never called the seller oops. Well night y’all see ttyl tomorrow night??
it feels so weird being in this room, like I can’t sleep
it was rlly good omg, it was really hard to say bye to my pup though and she was sad bc I was leaving again but this morning after I got dressed I started bring stuff downstairs and I kid u tf not I hear “ are t you going to say hi to me, I know I didn’t just fly from la to see you” I screamed so loud like I didn’t even see my brother there, I didn’t even hear him get home ?? But I gave him the biggest hug cried forever and I was in awe, but I drove with my brother & my parents drove together then we stopped for breakfast & moving in itself was good, our dorm looks so cute, I’m in love but after we were done my parents and brother left which that was rlly hard for me, I didn’t want my parents to leave but I really didn’t want my brother to because I’ve missed him so much, still sad about it. Took iconic pictures on my phone and obviously a disposable camera. but today was also round one of rush which that went rlly good, Can’t wait for day two, day two is more open houses so I’ll finish seeing the other sororities/meeting people In them, idk I just hope I get invited back when round two happens Monday