that i'm growing up, that someday i'm not gonna be this little girl anymore, that my parents aren't going to be here forever, that one day everything will be different, i may have a family of my own, that high school is just going to be a distant memory, i won't speak to half the people i speak to everyday now, every morning i won't just be waking up to go to school, have a laugh and mess about with my friends, i will have finished college and university, i'll have to go to work, deal with new things, have many more problems than i have now, someday very soon everything will be very different, i won't be this same person anymore and that time is going to fly so quickly, all i ever hear people say is 'i remember when...' i'm told all the time that 'it only feels like yesterday that you were tiny, you couldn't do anything for yourself, you were a baby' now look who i am, i'm not called a little girl anymore, i don't have all those nightmares and go running into my mum and dad, i don't call them mummy and daddy anymore and that is what scares me the most, that i'm growing up and it is going to happen and it is happening now and it's going so fast...oh yeah and spider they scare me alot!