Time for Ruby's Raging Rant. Today I am irritable. I had 2 hours of sleep, got woken up by the neighbours dragging an elephant or something across their living room, had a bug zoom around my room, had the shower water go cold and then.. I scrolled through my kik folder on my phone. Oh boy. Bad move.
"You've seen me smile,
Now you’re gonna have to see me hurtin’,
'cause pretending everything is alright when it ain’t, really isn’t working.
I wanna sing, I wanna shout,
I wanna scream till the words dry out,
So put it in all of the papers, I’m not afraid,
They can read all about it, read all about it."
^ Current mood.
Okay. So I was scrolling through my kik folder which contains any pictures I have saved from kik chats or sent to anyone, so of course it contained pictures that reminded me of the friend and honestly I'm really annoyed?? Do you have any idea how much time and effort I spent on them? This is the person I consoled when they were going through a rough patch with their S/O despite my being on holiday with family.. this is the person who I've consoled countless times and stayed up with because they weren't well, this is the person who, when I had a Uni assessment deadline in a few hours and I was painting and writing up stuff on one side, said friend messaged saying they were sad AND I WAS CONSOLING THEM THE MORNING OF MY DEADLINE?? Yeah.
It's been like a week since we stopped talking, and they don't really seem to be too fussed lol. Like was I that bad a friend? Surely a proper reason would have not been too much to ask for. I know I can make mistakes, I'm just as human as anyone else, but I am willing to apologise and make amends for them.. IF I BLOODY KNEW WHAT THEY WERE?? UM??
Really feeling let down by you babe, this wasn't the babe I befriended originally, you're like a different person now.
Get this though, we stopped talking the day after we had known each other for a year. Nice gift right? Nothing at all like the cute gestures their other friends received. Nope.
Throwback to schoolgirl Ruby. Schoolgirl Ruby used to get bullied for being too clever. No-one wants to be friends with the unpopular one right?? And the few friends I did manage to secure were, quite literally dragged away by the arm from my company by one of the popular gyals. I knew from then that I would always make my friends feel like they were the most important and worth their weight in gold.
So, aside from ranting, I will also take the time to thank the people who have been keeping me company and keeping my mind off things with stuff like kpops, old groovy songs, syringes, manicures and just general chit chat, in this time when I am more angsty than the brooding bad boy character of a badly written fanfiction on fanfic.net. Not name dropping because they're my babes and special treasures, and all mine. They're all equally important and irreplaceable. Anyone who thinks otherwise can fite me.
One smart cookie told me it's kinda obvious who hurt me, and maybe it is, but at this point I don't really care. They've made mince meat out of my feelings, why should I give a flying fart about theirs?
I'm not concerned, I have nothing to hide, I have done nothing wrong. My crime was maybe caring too much?? Sue me.
Might delete later.
Now you’re gonna have to see me hurtin’,
'cause pretending everything is alright when it ain’t, really isn’t working.
I wanna sing, I wanna shout,
I wanna scream till the words dry out,
So put it in all of the papers, I’m not afraid,
They can read all about it, read all about it."
^ Current mood.
Okay. So I was scrolling through my kik folder which contains any pictures I have saved from kik chats or sent to anyone, so of course it contained pictures that reminded me of the friend and honestly I'm really annoyed?? Do you have any idea how much time and effort I spent on them? This is the person I consoled when they were going through a rough patch with their S/O despite my being on holiday with family.. this is the person who I've consoled countless times and stayed up with because they weren't well, this is the person who, when I had a Uni assessment deadline in a few hours and I was painting and writing up stuff on one side, said friend messaged saying they were sad AND I WAS CONSOLING THEM THE MORNING OF MY DEADLINE?? Yeah.
It's been like a week since we stopped talking, and they don't really seem to be too fussed lol. Like was I that bad a friend? Surely a proper reason would have not been too much to ask for. I know I can make mistakes, I'm just as human as anyone else, but I am willing to apologise and make amends for them.. IF I BLOODY KNEW WHAT THEY WERE?? UM??
Really feeling let down by you babe, this wasn't the babe I befriended originally, you're like a different person now.
Get this though, we stopped talking the day after we had known each other for a year. Nice gift right? Nothing at all like the cute gestures their other friends received. Nope.
Throwback to schoolgirl Ruby. Schoolgirl Ruby used to get bullied for being too clever. No-one wants to be friends with the unpopular one right?? And the few friends I did manage to secure were, quite literally dragged away by the arm from my company by one of the popular gyals. I knew from then that I would always make my friends feel like they were the most important and worth their weight in gold.
So, aside from ranting, I will also take the time to thank the people who have been keeping me company and keeping my mind off things with stuff like kpops, old groovy songs, syringes, manicures and just general chit chat, in this time when I am more angsty than the brooding bad boy character of a badly written fanfiction on fanfic.net. Not name dropping because they're my babes and special treasures, and all mine. They're all equally important and irreplaceable. Anyone who thinks otherwise can fite me.
One smart cookie told me it's kinda obvious who hurt me, and maybe it is, but at this point I don't really care. They've made mince meat out of my feelings, why should I give a flying fart about theirs?
I'm not concerned, I have nothing to hide, I have done nothing wrong. My crime was maybe caring too much?? Sue me.
Might delete later.
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