What is the one thing you regret doing or not doing the most in your life?

Not maintaining the majority of the friendships I had. It’s one of the biggest regrets in my life - screwing up some of the best friendships that I have. I don’t talk to a lot of my good friends from the past, mostly because of a stupid misunderstanding that turned into something bigger, or just because we grew apart and stopped texting or calling each other
I think it’s partly due to the fact that in the past, I lost a friend dear to my heart. I’ve tried, countless times, to make the effort to fix the friendship. But it was a one-way street, I was doing everything I could to save it, but they couldn’t care less. So I gave up, I stopped trying, and I guess that thought just subconsciously followed me throughout the years?
I’m not a good friend in that sense. I stopped reaching out to people because I’m afraid it’d be a one-way street again. I’m afraid I’d get hurt again. So I just stop caring. I stopped putting in the extra effort.
And if it weren’t for a select few people who understood me and knew why I became this way, it would’ve probably killed me by now. Because although I saved myself from getting hurt again, it also meant that when I need someone to talk to, it gets hard (especially since these select few people are in different timezones than I am).
I’m trying to find a way to fix it, or fix myself, but I’ve been acting this way for the better part of the last ~6 years or so that getting out of this whole mess is a tremendous challenge.
So I’m sorry, if you’re one of the many, many people that I’ve ignored or stopped talking to or lost touch with.

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