#chemistry

I thiiiink the first exposure I had to polyamory (and not random stereotypes) was close to a decade ago, via an article of a lesbian throuple. I was amazed by their relationship, how they navigated marriage, and how much they all loved each other.

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Beyond that, I only had passing knowledge of it for a while, and didn't stop to consider if I was polyamorous; after all, I was convinced I was too needy, too jealous, too [insert other insult here]. However, I did have fleeting thoughts about having a polycule, and at times, even yearned for one. Furthermore, knowing I was committed to a single person for life - and would have to pass up relationships with people I have chemistry with - felt like a massive loss, though I pushed that feeling deep down as it brought guilt and shame. I loved my husband, and while these wants didn't change my love for him, I thought having them made me a bad person - despite not acting upon them.

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It wasn't until I became close with someone who identified as non-monogamous that I could finally start properly exploring those ideas with someone who understood. I also put in a lot of research, and concluded that I *am* polyamorous. I came out about 18 months ago and it's felt right since, even if coming out did contribute to the end of my (already unhealthy) marriage.

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"Could you have a real friendship if some part of you was always expecting betrayal?"

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"Everyone had been so much more entertaining then. What had happened? Age, he guessed. And with it: Jobs. Money. Children. The things to forestall death, the things to ensure one’s relevance, the things to comfort and provide context and content. The march forward, one dictated by biology and convention, that not even the most irreverent mind could withstand. But those were his peers. What he really wanted to know was when his friends had become so conventional, and why he hadn’t noticed earlier."

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“And if we are being philosophical—which we today are—we can say that life itself is the axiom of the empty set. It begins in zero and ends in zero. We know that both states exist, but we will not be conscious of either experience: they are states that are necessary parts of life, even as they cannot be experienced as life. We assume the concept of nothingness, but we cannot prove it. But it must exist. So I prefer to think that Walter has not died but has instead proven for himself the axiom of the empty set, that he has proven the concept of zero. I know nothing else would have made him happier. An elegant mind wants elegant endings, and Walter had the most elegant mind. So I wish him goodbye; I wish him the answer to the axiom he so loved.”

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"Sometimes he wonders whether this very idea of loneliness is something he would feel at all had he not been awakened to the fact that he should be feeling lonely, that there is something strange and unacceptable about the life he has."

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"But don’t you understand, Amy? You’re wrong. Relationships never provide you with everything. They provide you with some things. You take all the things you want from a person—sexual chemistry, let’s say, or good conversation, or financial support, or intellectual compatibility, or niceness, or loyalty—and you get to pick three of those things. Three—that’s it. Maybe four, if you’re very lucky. The rest you have to look for elsewhere. It’s only in the movies that you find someone who gives you all of those things. But this isn’t the movies. In the real world, you have to identify which three qualities you want to spend the rest of your life with, and then you look for those qualities in another person. That’s real life. Don’t you see it’s a trap? If you keep trying to find everything, you’ll wind up with nothing."

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First of all, there's no concept of pass or fail in mdcat. Even if u have scored more than u thought of (that obviously doesn't happen), u have to pray. Let's say 80% isn't bad at all, but that isn't sufficient to be on merit list.
Don't panic.
Stay calm. Stay awake how many nights u want before the test. But sleep at least 6 hours before it. Close ur books at 11 the night before test, no matter how much u want to study.
Don't cramp ur books. Cramping works till FSC, not after that, not at all. Concepts should be clear. Read ur text books only and read them again n again. Ask ur physics teacher for formulas that will work as shortcuts. Practice them. There won't be much time to solve the numerical n they aren't as simple as the one we solve in fsc. They involve one or more formulas to get an answer. In biology, there are exact lines from books. In chemistry, u should know the chemical reactions.
At my time, test involved negative marking, so if it happens again, please do not attempt all the questions.

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Answering a bunch of questions💫

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1. I didn’t like studying at school, I enjoyed chemistry and biology, and of course English. I sat with an excellent student and among those who studied better than me, this boredom and hostility to the presentation of subjects brightened up me.

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В школе учиться не нравилось, кайфовала от химии и биологии, ну и английский конечно же. Я сидела с отличницей и среди тех кто лучше меня учился, мне скрашивало это скуку и неприязнь к преподнесению предметов

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2. I have nyctophilia, only a few know and I see badly there, I don’t direct my magical power at my gaze

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У меня никтофилия, знают единицы и вижу я там плохо, магическую силу не на взор направляю

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3. Lightly salted cucumbers, green onions, paprika, with mushroom flavor, namely chanterelles

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Малосольные огурчики, зеленый лук, паприка; с гирбным вкусом, а именно лисичек

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4. A lot of archives in various social networks, everything is on a flash drive, I don’t load the amount of memory, I leave it for the best game processes, there should be a lot of free space

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Много архивов в различных соц.сетях, все на флешке, объем памяти не загружаю, оставляю для лучших процессов игры, там должно быть много свободного места

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I am leaving no stone unturned to reach the highest positions. Grew up in an inner city, motivated myself to get a degree and get a good job, and now that I have a decent job my parents constantly tell me to quit while I'm ahead and settle into my position for life. They think I'm a moron for striving for bigger things. My friends from the same city that became extremely successful also have only themselves to thank. None of us had abusive parents but we also weren't pushed to greatness as children. We just wanted better for ourselves and didn't want to end up living in the same shitty city as adults because we didn't work hard enough. In my experience the people who have the biggest dreams and most success have innate ambition. There is no "settling" for a job that pays a certain amount of money or a house in a nice neighborhood. There's no end point, only a desire to achieve bigger and greater things. I don't know if this is due to personality or brain chemistry, but you can see one person come out of a family living in squalor to become very successful while the rest of the family is content to keep living the same way they always have. I agree with this. My father is one of those hard dedicated workers. I have been working for the same company for close to 4 years now and have only taken 6 days of sick time. I do this because i strongly believe in attendance when working as he has done so his entire life. My mother on the other hand won't stay at a job for more than a year and mostly works 4 days a week and uses sick time nearly all the time.
Some of it was just monetary. When I was single I didn't care about money as long as I had enough to pay for rent, food, and video games. But now I'm 32 and we just bought a house, we are saving for college for our daughter, and we hope to travel internationally. All those things are easier with a better-paying job. As far as doing big things in the world, I've never really thought that way. My goal is to leave the world a little bit better than I found it and to raise my kid(s) to do the same. EDIT: Spelling
When I first read that, I was ready to call bullshit. No fellow human could look at these photos and not be moved. But then I realized... I didn't really care, the first time I saw the pictures in a book, or a movie. I doubt I felt any awe at all. Ten or fifteen years later, just thinking about it makes me tear up more than a little. The difference is that I've gained (I'd like to think) some perspective, both on our place in the cosmos, and realized the immense expansion and fulfillment of human capabilities that space exploration inherently is.
Ambition probably comes from life setup and morals taught early on. Rich kids don't have as much of a drive to succeed as poor kids like myself, because daddy will always be there to bail them out. You will find that a lot of the large names of today were poor early in life. Oprah Winfrey and J.K. Rowling are two commonly known ones.

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