#smile

Cause behind the smile, I'm so pissed
But I won't be showin' emotions
No, I'm not even tellin' my close friends
You can't fix me now, I'm too broken
I don't know why I'm witherin' this way
Think I'm always makin' a mistake
Close my eyes, just hopin' my neck breaks
Now I'm hardly copin', I don't know how much more I can take

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I'm lost, I can't find an escape
I pop and my ego deflates
While starin' me down, I surrender to sound
Just to find out that I was a fake
I'm not, I just want an escape
I pop and my ego deflates
It's starin' me down, I surrender to sound
Just to find out that I was a

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A fluke I got a tab in my pocket
It's what I use to justify all the fab I brought in
When I produce a beat it's like makin' laced nootropics
Confuse, repeat it, eternal state, neurotics
No explainin' my hair, it's all a vanity fair
I'll leave the body I wear
And you can bring me to Hell

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Yeah, you could tell it was the lie that you would've won
I'll play it out in my mind, what I could've done
And keep wondering if I'll write when my time is up
I can't help but picture my life ending in a month
And, baby, you can try to love me, but I'm not fazed
I'm straight flushed with poker on my face
Then I start to choke on my own weight
Now I'm hardly copin', I don't know how much more I can take
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i have a story.

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Sam is back after a long time in a mess and completely lost, He didn't know what was going on
He went to Tom's because it was the only house he knew He didn't speak at first, as if he had lost the meaning of words،
Tom asked what was the matter, Sam
But Sam didn't answer him, he just looked into Tom's eyes At that time, Tom realized that this was not the Sam he knew, so he approached him and tried to embrace him, but at that time, Sam let his feelings out and began to cry, and Tom's looks expressed the severity of the moment. Sam left Tom and went and he was going Tom asked him where are you going Sam and what is going on with you but Sam does not know what is going on with him too Sam left the house, and on the threshold of the house, Tom looked at him in complete astonishment, and once Sam disappeared, amidst Tom's astonishment and amazement. Tom hurried to the phone to call Sam, but his phone was switched off and he did not answer, then after a few moments someone called Tom and told him that your brother Sam died two weeks ago Tom was not believing what he was hearing, so he lost his feeling and became breaking and hitting everything in front of him, and when a mirror in front of him looked at him, he found Sam in front of him. He started talking to him like a madman, but Sam did not answer him, it was just a smile and goodbye After the passage of days and months, Tom realized the truth about the matter, Sam. He needed someone to show him the way. He was completely lost. The strange thing is that Tom knew nothing about his older brother, Sam. Time stole everything, portraying the importance of moments through a marginal link that narrates the events of change Sam loved Tom very much and Tom did too, but time intervened and made all the difference Sam was Tom and Tom was Sam, they are not two people but just one person.

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Because it just feels good and it doesn't cost anything. Some might say 'people just take advantage'. I do agree to this and that's why as soon as I sense I am not being valued I leave, without wasting a second, I just leave. Had been taken for granted, abandoned and left alone by my own people when I was at my worst, but that won't change this nature of mine. I don't do it for others, I do it for myself, at the end I sleep with a happy heart. I have enough love in me to love myself and much more to give others. Everyone has to face harships and sufferings in life, but it just needs one kind word from someone to regain strength, faith in life and faith in self. And it doesn't cost nothing to be that 'someone' ☺️ People who were the closest abandoned me, people who were complete strangers gave a shoulder to lean on, so it all depends from person to person. Not everyone will come to take advantage, some will be there to hold you even without any reason or relation. We just have to be attentive to other's intention in order to protect ourselves.
This world is selfish, but it is just as selfless.
And then comes people like you who encourages me to be better. Thank you so much for blessings.🤗 May you have the brightest smile on your face and a peaceful heart 🌸

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For some, there is hardly any difference. It would appear counterintuitive but there are plenty of people who choose to find pleasure in misery. It is familiar territory. A convenient crutch. Perhaps one of the easiest ways to garner sympathy. Yes, genuine depression exists but it can be addressed and it is important to remember that medication or therapy isn't required in every case. A very serious condition may require intervention but there are times when a positive mental attitude will suffice. Those who truly need help should seek it. There is no shame in doing so. If services aren't available or accessible, one could turn to friends, family, colleagues, mentors, spiritual advisors, etc. Merely talking with another person can do a world of good. Surrender is not an option. Joy can be found in simple things but we must be willing to find it. The cost is less than what I charge people to visit my page. Please deposit $0.00 in my Ask account and don't forget to smile. Often. 🙃

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⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀♡♡♡------♡♡♡------♡♡♡

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⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⤵️ Скину тебе классных треков, но не скринами, а так, как я всегда делаю.😍

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🎶 Ольга Бузова - «Заплачу»
🎶 ASAMMUELL - «До встречи»
🎶 Эллаи - «Набери»
🎶 Idris & Leos - «Первой не пиши»
🎶 Bahh Tee, Turken - «Путь к тебе»
🎶 Вирус, DK - «В сетку»
🎶 T1One - «Не до отношений»
🎶 Мари Краймбрери - «Отпусти меня»
🎶 Burito - «Холод»
🎶 Слава - «Дочка-Мама»
🎶 Маша Шейх - «Будь человеком»
🎶 TINI, La Joaqui, Steve Aoki - «Munecas»
🎶 Джизус - «Не пара»
🎶 RASA, IOWA - «Синий иней»
🎶 Мари Краймбрери, Филипп Киркоров - «Первый снег»
🎶 Влад Соколовский - «Ты одна»
🎶 Алёна Швец - «Спи»
🎶 Дмитрий Колдун - «Заметает»
🎶 Хабиб - «Новогодний привет»
🎶 Моя Мишель - «Воздушный шар»
🎶 DIP Project - «Белый снег»
🎶 Катя Адушкина, Влад Соколовский - «Катя, возьми телефон»
🎶 Максим Круженков, ВИА ГРА - «Попытка №5»
🎶 Дима Каминский - «SMILE»
🎶 Ханна - «Прощай»
🎶 Макс Корж - «Береги её»

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⠀⠀⠀⠀『21. 01. 2023 ~ 10 : 30』

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"Adoption" by Alex

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Oh there are so many. I would say it was the adoption of our daughter. We started the adoption process before our daughter was born in 2006. We were notified of her birth and given 24 hours to make our decision. For the next 7 months she was cared for by a beautiful foster family who we still maintain contact with.

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So in July 2007 we flew to Guatemala City to meet our daughter, the care givers and the lawyer and social worker. I remember it as though it were yesterday. My wife and I were staying at the hotel and received a call informing us that our daughter was waiting for us in the lobby. For me, it was love at first sight. We met everyone involved in this process, signed the necessary paperwork and brought our daughter back to our room.

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Since my wife was not feeling well, I had the honor and privilege of caring for our baby until the plane departed the following day. As one can imagine, she was upset, crying and I would say traumatized from the uncertainty and drastic change to her environment. Every time I put the baby into the crib to sleep she started crying and would only stop when I held her. So for the next 24 hours I held her in my arms and when we awoke in the morning, I noticed a change in her demeanor. She stopped crying and started to smile and laugh because a bond, based upon mutual love and trust, had begun to form.

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I could talk for hours and days about this experience because for me it completely changed my life for the better, for she is the apple of my eye. We do everything together which includes: performing music together, playing golf, tennis, helping her with homework (science, math, reading). She also likes to challenge me and debate me. She fondly calls me an old man and a geek because to her friends I am old enough to be her grandpa and because of my passion for music and poetry. There are times, for example, when her friends visit and hear me wailing away on my guitar or bass in my studio and I suppose they are not exposed to that type of behavior. Too funny, right? The best part is that whenever she is with her friends and they are giggling and behaving like teens, when I walk into the room, it becomes dead silent as though a loved one died and we are showing respect at their funeral service.

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So... I have to say the adoption of our daughter and our time together are my favorite memories and the memories that give my life it's greatest meaning and purpose.

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⠀⠀It’s a mystery, but Majima has a hunch. It’s a feeling. He’s been in this business a long time, and he’s learned over the years how to spot different types of stares. But this one... it was really unusual. Wherever his lone eye searched, he never found the one responsible for bringing him that sense of observation. It was getting more and more intense, probably to the point of being uncomfortable.

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But Majima was not averse to this. This became, for him, an amusingly intriguing case.

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With a metallic bat resting on one shoulder, a relaxed posture wandering in the middle of a completely empty park at midnight, and a wide smile faced the hidden presence.

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⠀⠀❝...Ya like what ya seein’? It's pretty unfair I can’t see ya, whoever ya are.❞ ⠀A strong but calm voice came from him. He would try to keep his senses sharp at any minimal sign.

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⠀⠀❝Quit hidin’, c’mon... I won’t bite ya, it’s a promise— A pinky promise! How ’bout that?❞

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And he raised his little finger in the air.

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