#starving

I look in the mirror and ask myself, "What the hell is wrong with you?" If it were possible, I would slap myself across the face too. Hopefully, I'd snap out of it. How could I possibly go through life and pretend that I can't find joy in anything when others are suffering, homeless, starving or in constant danger from a pointless war? There are children dying of cancer. People who have lost loved ones. Victims of crime, disease and totalitarian governments. I'm healthy. In good shape and fully functional. 👍 I have a place to sleep. A few shekels in my wallet. Enough food to feed an army. More books than I will ever have time to read. The dearest friends a person could hope to have and miraculously, they still tolerate my eccentricities. The freedom to pursue my interests and devote some time to worthy causes. This alone is enough to satisfy me. What could bring more joy than voluntarily helping others? If the day should come when I can't / won't find pleasure in anything, you have my permission to kick my a55. Twice.

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The idea of BLM is to remind people of what is often practically shown to be not true; that lives of non-whites do also matter. It is not an exclusionist claim; in order to be one, it needs to be OBLM - ONLY black lives matter, which is not, evidently. You're building a straw man argument here.
By counter claiming that all lives matter you're doing discervice to the oppressed group by minisculing their suffering and engaging in whataboutery. Essentially, you become an accidental racist, blinded by your 'priviledge' of being not a minority.
Saying all lives matter to BLM movement is essentially is saying "let them eat cake" when the monarch was approached about starving poor masses, not being able to get daily bread. you're ignorant to the fact that they don't have access to cake; you take it for granted.
To answer your questions, yes, I don't agree that all lives matter. No, I don't think that only the lives of the blacks or any other ethnicity/race matters. No, I'm neither a closeted nor open racist – I despise all life equally and indiferently of their attributes.

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Unfortunately our society is a looks oriented society which I believe sets unrealistic and false expectations for many women. These expectations include height, weight, body type, hips, lips, hair, eyes, clothes, foot wear, and everything else related to physical appearance. As a result, some women perceive themselves as overweight and physically unattractive which results in an array of emotional disorders such as depression, anxiety attacks, eating disorders (bulimia, anorexia), cutting, sleep disorders, attempted suicides and a belief that they are unloved, isolated, irrelevant, outcasts, rejected, abandoned, ignored, neglected and discarded. These conflicting emotions sometimes result in women attempting to lose weight through excessive and unhealthy diets, starving themselves, consuming diet pills and in extreme cases, forcing themselves to vomit after each meal so they can attain the "perfect body" that their peers and our dysfunctional society will accept and proclaim as "beautiful." A tragedy with unimaginable pain, suffering and self destructive consequences.

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I'm paying with my own money, and living under my own roof, so if I want to have fried fish (without tartar sauce) and chips WITHOUT any vegetables on the side, I will.
I was extremely sick as a kid and I had to be fed certain foods and certain amounts, even when I wasn’t hungry. It made me constantly feel more sick. Now it’s is really hard for me to eat and I have an eating disorder.
My sense of smell wins me over most times. If something doesn’t smell good enough, or straight up stinks, I will not try/eat it. Also, if the plate I am offered/served has an ingredient I know I don’t like, I won’t eat it neither.
I starved myself too. Food has been a struggle for as long as I can remember. I have no idea why. I'm still skinny and I still don't eat much on a daily basis. But force-feeding me has only made it worse. If my parents had tried another way maybe I would have been able to eat normally now that I'm adult.
I was too, but it was only because I had a habit of starving myself out of pickiness. I do wonder if that hasn't contributed to my eating problems as an adult.
At restaurants and stuff, it's not too bad. They usually have something I can find that's alright, or I just order it without/with a bunch of stuff (I always feel bad for the waiter/ress though because I'm so high maintenance). Same thing goes with the cafeteria food at uni. It was a little harder in high school, so if the entree was something I didn't like, I'd either not eat or just eat the sides. It's kind of hard at other people's houses. I'll usually just not take a lot of it and stomach what I have to to be polite.
I've been a picky eater for as long as I remember, but I'm not a dick about it. I'm not a vegetarian, and I don't have any dietary requirements... I'm just weird when it comes to food. I usually have a packed lunch instead of cafeteria food and when I stay at my friend's we usually get a takeaway or I just eat what they give me.I was a very picky eater in my younger years! Interestingly, I read that picky eaters consume a diet of mostly orange/yellow coloured foods. This proved accurate in my case so I began trying to create colourful meals.
So far every person I know that is picky about food was forced to eat things they didn't want as a child. Since my parents never forced anything on me I grew up liking most everything. When I was little I loved broccoli and brussels sprouts and just couldn't fathom that none of the other kids would touch them.

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I feel like it depends on my mood.ni can have extreme patience and ignore anything but more often than not i am easily annoyed by sooooo many things :'D everything starts to annoy me haha

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What annoys me the most are people. Drunk/high people? I get annoyed. Direspectful people? I get annoyed. Unintelligent people? I get annoyed. People making noise or anyhow disturbing me? I get annoyed. Horny people? I get annoyed. Sluty people? I get annoyed. Victim card/self pitying people? I get annoyed. Big ego/full of themself people? I get annoyed. People not caring about the planet like making unnecessary waste or harming living things? I get annoyed. People not being on time - being late? I get annoyed...

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And since you mention adds well i hate it and get severly annoyed by how many nsfw adds there are -.- like every second add i get while playing game son phone is of some game where you undressing mostly female character or where things are based on sexual interactions between characters or at minimum smugg graphic stories...it makes me wanna stop using phone all together because i have seen those one too many times 🙄 and the worst thing is icant even block them (used to be able to?). Iam already annoyed by adds in general cuz they are too common and interupt things (in games, youtube etc) but those are just the absolute worst and it instantly ruins my day -.-

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Public wc's annoy me. more so repulse than annoy tho. Cuz they are always nasty. I rather not go to the toilet all day than go in those nasty smelly trash holes. The only exception is library. The toilet there is always spotless 😅 the only public toilet i will use honestly haha

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I could go on but i am sleep deprived and starving atm and my patience battery was completely drained while battling my kid to make him sleep so right now i feel like EVERYTHING annoys me. Like existance itself annoys me :'D so i dont feel like my answer will be realistic in curremt state. But what i did mention always annoys me :'D

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Oh just look at that brainwashed 🤡, could it be even more mainstream? Reason number 1 why I loathe this site. Don't know why I have not blocked you months ago, when you opened your row mouth and spoke utter vulgar nonsense about Russia and Ukraine business . But I think now is the time. YOU and people like you who have 0 intellect or sense make me sick, I throw up my hands in confusion, looking at what you people are doing. Eating sweet fresh dump from the media and willingly sharing it with others, disguising it as a "Good Deed".

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Boy, what you see/hear in the MEDIA is not the ultimate truth ffs.

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Try to use critical thinking instead of soaking up everything that this cruel and unfair world of the press and green notes is trying to give you.

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January 2022 was the most brutal month in more than 5 years of air war waged by Saudi Arabia with US support in Yemen. Have you heard about it ?

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Since March 2015, the coalition has carried out over 23,000 airstrikes in Yemen, killing or injuring over 20,000 civilians.

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The Biden administration continues to sell weapons to aggressor countries. It increased direct support for the UAE.

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So, on 26 March, the UAE again invaded Yemen. Do you hear the condemning mouthpieces of the media ? No ? Nobody cares about the children of Yemen dying of hunger for many years, the starving people of Yemen?

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That's all there is to know about the media.

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Go and arrest the whole of america circus for their endless war crimes (or did you now know about them? What about the most recent Afghanistan or have you already forgotten ? Or what they have done to Yugoslavia ? Or you just don't know / don't care due to their lack of education and the fact that it did not flood the Internet / media so much?)

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YOU have no idea what the Russian army is doing in Ukraine and why. You have no idea what Ukrainians have been doing since at least 2014. So shut your stupid mouth and feel sorry for yourself, not the Russian people.

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Oh, a ton of things. Not surprisingly, the first thing that I thought of was online/Instagram culture, lol.

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One specific thing that springs immediately to mind is that we're told it's perfectly normal, healthy, and easy (with a lot of hard work, of course) to achieve that flat "washboard" tummy or a six-pack. In reality, genetics plays a massive factor, and even for those who can achieve the look, they often have to flex/suck in to show off their abs. From what I can tell, the other major option is starving and/or dehydrating yourself - which, of course, is a whole other example of something that's been normalized that shouldn't be.

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There's nothing wrong with having a tummy that sticks out a little, or a lot - it's completely normal, especially as you age, or go through pregnancy, and people of all body shapes and sizes can have it - and the notion that you have to lose all abdominal fat to look good is not only a complete scam, but does so much f*cking harm. It's okay to let your body just be.

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Rose looked the young vampire up and down and then made face screaming SUFFERING.❝Neither do I, if that makes you feel any better.❞ The dhampir girl with a shrug and then gestures Sarah to follow her inside.
❝Listen,I won't go around playing 'ma'am' role and all, but I will kick your vampire ass if you decide to off bananas, kapish? ❞ She looked over her shoulder and rose and eyebrow. ❝Gosh, don't look so terrified, whatever they said about me, it's pretty much twice as bad on trouble level, BUT everyone always cuts out the FUN part. You'll have the most entertaining training sessions possible, I promise you that. We have plenty people to annoy while we here. Are you hungry? Cause I am starving, Alberta made us wait you for half an hour. By hungry I meant that food-food, but we can take a detour to the feeders if you wanna..you know..❞ She made a gesture pointing at her non existent fangs.

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THE INVISIBLE WALLS BETWEEN US!

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it was a random cold night,

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tired of his daily routine he dailed her, in a heavy voice, slow pace he mumbled her name, noor. hmm she replied.

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in a heavy wishpring sleepy voice he said .. YOU ARE MINE. the gap between words, the firm tone, his tired body, his sleepy head, proved his HEART was now on command,

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no matter how impossible it was for him to accept that he loved her unconditionally, how hard it was to let her go, how sad he was deep down ... he said what the heart wanted.

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my heart skipped a, with my stonned eyes, i listened to him, hard to believe, sweet to hear, i wanted to flew to him, hide somewhere in his strong arms, to feel how life would be if i was really HIS. FOREVER.

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i tried to answer but before i could even speak, unintentionally i kissed, twice, thrice, multiple other times,

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he was what i wanted, someone i was starving for. some i would not mind dying for.

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but silence again built UNBREAKABLE walls,

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he might not remember what he said. i might not forget what he said.

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life is unpredictable. 🌚🥀

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You're a human. You're starving, so you eat your food and fulfill your hunger.
But can you do one thing being a human that you fulfill your hunger and not eat your food?
Or can you eat your food and not fulfill your hunger?
That's a NO, right? You can't do either. When you eat your food, you'll fulfill your hunger and if you want to fulfill your hunger, you have to eat your food.

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So, exactly!
You're a human means You're in a relationship.
You're eating your food means you're being honest in a relationship.
You're fulfilling your hunger means you're saving a relationship.

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Why do you even have to choose between anything? They both are important. You can do both. You can be honest, and still save a relationship. And you can save a relationship by still being honest.
When you're in a relationship, you have to be honest and also do whatever it takes to save your relationship. Both are important, you can save the relationship and be honest as well.

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I feel like if a Christmas song ever mistakenly comes on outside the Christmas season, people show immense disdain. Even if it's only December 26th. While I understand that a ton of Christmas music is annoying, are there any Christmas songs you wish weren't associated with the holiday so you could listen to them throughout the year? The three that jump out at me are The Christmas Song by Nat King Cole, Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas by Judy Garland, and Happy Xmas (War is Over) by John Lennon. I'm fond of the melodies and imagery in the first two. I think Lennon's song has great atmosphere.
I'm not even religious, but when I hear these songs with a proper choir behind them, holy shit, you can just feel how people used to actually care about this holiday once upon a time. It lends it a sense of gravitas and makes this time of year feel like so much more than hokey novelty songs and plastic bullshit.
I've never actually stopped to read the lyrics, and it would seem they are both very dark and hopeful at the same time. It is a story of a starving sparrow getting fed by a small girl in a cold Christmas morning, but apparently the sparrow is actually the girl's dead brother (if I'm reading this right), who has come from heaven to greet her. Not sure if grim, sad, or optimistic.
For me, there is absolutely no album that is more summery than Operation Ivy - Energy. Maybe it's because I am from Florida and lived like 15 mins from the beach my entire childhood, but that album is the essence of driving to the beach with the windows down on a hot summer day. The albums that have always felt the most wintery to me are Sigur Ros - ( ) and Agaetis Byrjun. The bass line in Olsen Olsen particularly feels like snow falling. When I went to Iceland in December a few years back, I was taking the shuttle from the airport to downtown Reykjavik and as we were driving, Olsen Olsen came on shuffle. So one of my first moments in Iceland, driving through the snow on this shuttle bus, was listening to that song.
So far I've liked everything they've done. Their latest album is a bit weaker than the rest but still good. I think it's just lacking in memorable hooks and melodies. Tyler's vocals are great and Tim's synths are catchy as hell. I like the trance influence you can hear it a lot in how Tim produces the songs. Trance is another genre a love so it's a great combination. If they ever come nearby I'm definitely going to see them.
Brand New’s The Devil and God Are Raging Inside Me has always been a fall record for me, both sonically and because I got into it in the fall of my junior year of high school. There’s something about the moments of empty cold interspersed with precipitating emotion and pain that play off the instrumentals and just sound like fall to me. Death Cab’s Plans is another fall record, though I got into this one my freshman year of college on long, lonely walks in the autumn twilight.

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