you spoiling me? I think..yes 💗
well i will prove you wrong. i know how hard it will be and i won't let you go through it alone again.
you need to tell me to go now..you have to
baby.. i will be able to talk to you still.
baby...you say that but I know you. you won't
and it up to me to make it through that time without you
it literally makes me nauseous thinking about it now so I'd rather not..
what paperwork and stuff..? if you don't want to share that's okay.
legal stuff, college stuff. money issues and basic things i need to go back to school. routine things that someone who has normal parents do all the time, i just don't have that so i have to do it all at once.
and i haven't used this many parenthesis in a very long time
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( i don't know if i will survive it again. i honestly don't. last time was the worst ever, in all of our time together, and i don't know how strong i am expected to be ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
we're leaving thursday morning and getting back august 5th
i will let you know today the dates. but beth i can still talk during the vacation.
then i'll wait for you to contact me next
i hope so (: have a fun and safe night. tomorrow might not work.. and it's not going to be 2 weeks beth.
well, i don't know when it will be or for how long. so when we stop talking then i guess i'll know.
have a fun night too
but 4 hours is 3/12 hours more than than i hoped for and im starving. i need to change my sheets and clean up and eat. i will go out again tonight, but will be with funner people.
i can go a few days without you if i have to. i will get myself ready for when you are gone from me for 2 weeks.
sorry.. gotta go work out and do something productive..
you did me..and that was productive😏
i will be leaving soon though :/ probably around like 20 minutes
see...I knew it.
i just cut the top! 🙈 and it doesn't matter if you delete it. i want to still talk if you want to (:
I would talk to you forever I'd I could🙊
haha..sure you did
back (: and it doesn't matter to me 🙈
I figured out what you meant. I'll leave it up..its safe and cute and makes me smile
my mom is giving me a haircut right now... it will be about 15 minutes i'd say... is that okay?
hey! you just said you were growing it out!!
i think mine 🙈 i'm happy with my change.
me too. if you want me to erase that pic of you i will.
of course. i understand. i love you too beth. 💜💜💜 i'm gonna take a quick shower (:
will you come back and visit with me more ??
i'm done 😊
I'm sorry I got jealous there. I still can't deal with certain things. can you delete that photo please😓
thank god i changed... i look so young and i would never cut my hair that short now! 🙈😜
babe...you were soooo cute! i mean, think about it, in junior high how cute that is. and girls never seem to change as much as boys do. but no, i don't think you would look as good with hair that short. was that your idea or your parents?
but ohh my, i can see how much you have changed. :)
do you remember where that would have been taken? or how old you were? 9th grade maybe?
how'd you get that? where was it? tell me ((:
it was the first time I think I noticed you. it was on someone post somewhere, i don't even remember. i had gone back and found it after i started talking to you. i kept it. i rarely keep things, but that i kept. it was a reminder of how i saw you. and just now, seeing that picture of you, so much time later, how you have changed. how grown up you are. how you do look 25. not 14
okay okay i deleted it 🙈😏
are you that way now?
you will find the answer to that on my account
omg! jared!! why are you doing that! please?? erase it even though its beautiful and so tempting..i cannot lose your words :((((
i was hoping you'd get it eventually 😜 and i know, i'm just kidding 🙈 i'm perfectly fine with this until we get to that point some day 😋
are you home now? if not, stop talking when driving
waiting in my bed? 😏
haha, I get it now. no jared. unfortunately I am not there. someday. for now, we just have to have it be like this. I hope it's enough
going home now 💜
go slow babe...I will be waiting for you when you get there