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How are your mind right now?

lost girl
There are no words to describe how I am feeling.
What is on my mind? I don't even know.
My mind is a complete and utter mess. Maybe more than it's ever been before.
I hate myself. I fucking hate myself so much. Everything about me.
I do not know what to do with my life.
My bestest friend is gone. My parents are super annoying. Everything is just shit.
I am just so stupid. What is wrong with me? Why can't I just be normal? Why am I like this?
I've always gotta fuck everything up. I'm a complete fuck up.
My mind is filled with regrets and self hate. All I can think about is all the stupid things I've done.
I just want something. I feel really unloved and lonely. Why won't anymore like me?
Yeah, I get jealous. I can get moody. I make stupid jokes. I am even desperate. But I still fucking try. I give everything my all. It's just still not good enough. Maybe I'm not good enough. Yeah, I'm not good enough.
I can't imagine someone thinking about me ever. Or genuinely caring about me. Or having a crush on me. I'm not special or anything. I just am here. I exist. But I don't have a purpose or anything. I don't mean anything.
God, when will I do something right?
Is there really something so terrible about me that nobody wants anything to do with me? Or am I just working it all up in my mind? What even is going on in my mind? I don't know! I'm an absolute mess.
My whole mind and body is engulfed in fears. No matter what I do I can't stop it. Huge fears of rejection in particular.
I am just really vulnerable right now.
I’m sorry I wasted your time with this lousy answer. I'm not looking for pity. I just needed to vent somewhere.
Maybe writing this all down will clear up my mind. Or else I'll just regret this too. And then I'll end up deleting this in a few hours. Oh well.

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