Do you regret being alive?
i regret not being able to die.
Oh Noah... You will be back to normal i just know you will
you cannot reassemble burnt paper.
If life is a dream, do you want to wake up?
i wake up from the dream every day. but i am still in the nightmare. can one ever truly wake up. perhaps ill find out the day i wake in a different body.
What gives you the strength to get up and continue with this?
it is not strength. it is cowardice. that coward creature in the mirror that was once myself. i am but a witness to his destruction. his slow decay.
What's keeping you from killing yourself?
im afraid i wont die. im afraid ill wake up in a dark place. i cannot see in the dark.
Burn the book
how can i burn my only friend.
Are you running yet?
in my mind i run miles every day. trying to escape this life. but when i wake up i realize i havent moved at all.
what would happen if you haven't watched those 2008 tapes ?
i would have lost my mind sooner. they were going to come for me eventually. like a dormant virus.
Any news on the DarkHarvest crew? They seemed to have dropped off the radar.
theyre best off the radar.
Time is short. The final way ahead is straight. Will you turn?
time is eternal. our lives are short. i take a few steps forward and want to turn back but theres always a brick wall at my back.
Have you tried to contact Kevin?
im a pussy.
Have you opened the fortune cookies that you've been finding? If so what do the fortunes say?
yes. they range from being generically hopeful and giving good advice to ambiguously sinister and obviously meant to freak me out.
How does surviving 2 years longer than you expected feel?
only parts survived. a lot of me has been decaying since then.
Did you know that you were born on Veteran's day,Noah?
im a veteran in my own right.
Dude, fortune cookies are delicious. Why don't you eat them?
i dont eat random food i find hidden around my house. im not that far gone.
Who do you think left the fortune cookies?
Noah, please. If you have evidence, you've gotta post it.
ill post what i have soon
do you think firebrand created the vine account and the 2 videos? if yes, why the fuck he want scare you like that?
something tells me hes not entirely my best buddy
would you rather be killed by THEM, or turned into one of THEM?
would you rather drown or burn.
Noah, in your "The Manifest" video, you said you'd ask Edward about his dad and if he might be connected to the Order. Are you still thinking about that? Or do you think it's just a wacky coincidence?
still need to call him. its been a long while since weve talked. ive been too apprehensive. i dont think that fucking cult would ever help me with any info anyway. fuck them.
Do you need a hug?
would you hug a burning cactus.
I'm so sorry.
so am i. doesnt change jack shit.
did you see Everymanhybrid's new video?
theyre all lost now.
When's the update video? You said soon, it's been a month.
really. its felt like a year.
What is the thing that you found? Is it important to you?
its something i thought i had lost, something people wanted to see again.