Last night I dreamt I was in a home movie theater at some big sleepover that had long since died down so everybody was asleep except for me and this one girl I liked in high school. We were watching a movie on the big screen involving some murder mystery about who was killed first. It was just about over. We were sitting right up against a couch or a bed frame or something, she was resting her head on my right shoulder, and we were both really tired. The movie ended and we both kind of made this wordless agreement that we were too exhausted to move and it was okay to fall asleep in this position. Her head was right next to mine. I wanted to kiss her. I moved my head closer so I could, but for a long time I was stuck in that semi permanent state of kissing and not kissing her, wondering if I should just stop and forget it ever happened and maybe regret even trying later or just go through with it. I thought about it for so long that I didn’t even notice my lip was touching hers. Isn’t she going to pull away? Should I stop? This is too risky maybe I should just stop. But I didn’t. And she didn’t. We both moved in slowly. And we kissed. I tried to apologize, because I didn’t think I did a good job, but she shot me down and kissed me again just to prove it was worth it. Then we fell asleep. Then I woke up.

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