Dean McWilliams

this question was asked over 17 days ago and i'm just now responding. and it's anon. and i have no idea who this is. so i feel kinda scared. i'm just going to assume, that this is my Ex Girlfriend. Because i don't know of anyone else who could possibly be in love with me, and me "hate" them. Which, i don't even hate you. But, you know, you abandoned me when i needed you. My aunt passed away, and the day after that YOU left me. When you knew, i was going through a rough time. Especially when my mom is going through cancer. You "needed" a break. That wasn't a break. That was "yo, im not talking to you from this point on.". when i tried and tried to get a hold of you. Texting. Calling. You, no response. And as awful of me it is to to say this, you should feel like shit. Because guess what? When you weren't there for me, iiiiii felt like shit. I couldn't eat. I couldn't sleep. I wasn't even in my right mind. But, then i realized. Wow, my mother needs me to be strong for her. My whole family does. They NEED me. So, i toughed it up. Sucked up the tears. And smoked and drank my feelings away with what dignity and strength i had inside myself. My mom had her kidney removed, but her right lung collapsed. Other shit has happened too, but why on Earth should i even tell you? You should have been there for me. Just like i was always there for you with your family problems. Even if i felt like i couldn't hold my own self up, i made sure i held YOU up. Because guess what? I loved you. I sure did. I actually don't hate you at all, nor do i regret the relationship we had. And i'm telling you, it's OKAY; what you did. Because when you weren't there, someone else was. Someone else was there to hold me when i'd cry. To make me feel WANTED. Cared for. Loved. You're younger than me, so i can understand how you would want different things and feel changed within yourself. So, it's okay. I also don't think you were in love with me. I think you were like, in a strong bondage, had huge feelings and was a bit uhm... addicted? As in, you wanted other shit but didnt know how to let me go. Anyways, you did let me go. So, so be it. Move on. Please.

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