isabella. she's the only person who understands me. nobody else bothers to talk to me, accept her and she makes plans with me. nobody else. nobody includes me in anything accept for her cause yall suck
well to me. social anxiety is hell. it's like living your whole life thinking everyone is watching you everyone is criticizing you, everyone's just waiting for u to fail so they can laugh at u. the simplest things in life that nobody thinks twice about doing makes me want to sit and hide for the rest of my life bc I csnt do them. for example, ordering food at a restaurant. the waitress is asking us what we want im last bc I don't speak up and then when they turn to me I just can't get It out I studder and get really nervous and I panic bc I feel like everyone is criticizing me. I can't start a conversation first with somebody... like if somebody doesn't start a convo there won't be a conversation..I just pretend to be something bc I don't know how else to handle this.