Infernia

(I have decided to put it in story-form for you, dear anon. Just know that Ryker is Dae's best friend, and they were in a terrible accident on the way home from a party the night before and are now in the ICU at an emergency room. This is only part one, part two and possibly part three will follow.)

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I laid in bed wide awake that night. I was too worried about Ryker. His labored, choked breathing, small whimpers, sound of his heart monitor slowing nearly to the point of a flatline, then picking up speed at a painstaking rate. The medical personnel were doing everything they could, but he only seemed to grow worse. I wasn’t sure how we had ended up like this. I mean, I knew, but I didn’t understand why it had to happen. I was sixteen, and Ryker was eighteen. Both of us were still in high school. We had so much to look forward to. Now, he was starting to wave good-bye to all of that, and I was balancing on a line of determination to keep fighting and exhaustion that screamed for me to give up. I let myself drift off to sleep. By the time the sun rose the next morning, I realized Ryker was so far over the edge I knew there was no coming back. He had given up, despite my pleading. It was driving me insane, having to listen to him drift in out of consciousness, struggle for every breath, and whimper every time he attempted to move even a fraction of an inch. Our parents had only gone home to change clothes and get breakfast, and would be back in about an hour or two. A stream of visitors- friends, family, people we barely knew- had been in and out for the majority of the night before, trying to talk to me and ask questions. I didn’t talk though, not to anyone. I had fallen into an unescapable abyss of depression knowing that my best friend would not be able here with me for much longer. I got permission from the nurse that had been watching over us to go to Ryker’s bedside. She helped me up from my own bed, helping me move my maze of wires, needles, and bandages to the side of the room where Ryker laid. The nurse left us alone, and as I stood there on weak legs looking at my best friend, I felt tears come to my eyes. I gripped his hand with one of my own.
“Please don’t give up, Ryker. I don’t know what I would do without you. You mean more to me than anyone else I’ve ever known. I have learned so much from you. You’ve always been there for me, and I need you now more than ever. Without you, things won’t be the same. Just think about all of the memories we’ve made, the things we’ve done together, how much we truly do need each other. I can’t help but feel like I’ve cheated you, like this should be me instead of you. I can’t do this. I’m not strong enough. You’ve helped me face my fears, no matter how irrational, you’ve always believed in my dreams, no matter how ridiculous, and you’ve always had my back. You’ve always given me that extra push I need, supported my decisions, treated me like family… And for that, I’ll never be able to thank you enough

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For my New Year's Resolution, I planned to stop slacking off in my courses and spend more time working and studying. I also want to start working out more often, eating healthier, and try to stay in shape. My holiday was kinda.... uneventful, except for a couple things, but I did receive some pretty cool gifts which was great. c:

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Daemon;; I actually have a list of games I can't wait to try out! So... I'll list the games, their possible release date, and what I plan to play them on:

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-Grim Fandango Remastered, January, PS Vita
-Final Fantasy Type-0 HD, March, Xbox One
-Bloodborne, March, PS4
-Below, Release Date TBA, Xbox One
-Everybody's Gone to the Rapture, Release Date TBA, PS4
-Uncharted 4: A Thief's End, Release Date TBA, PS4

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Over this holiday, I spend a lot of time with my family and friends. I even had a close friend over, and it was absolutely amazing. (Actually, it's still great, as the RP is still going on. XD) As for New Year's Resolutions.... I really just want to continue to do well in my job and try to avoid as much stress as possible. I want to spend more time with my friends and family, and just go outside my comfort zone and try new things. It might now sound like much, but it's what I'm hoping for. I don't really have anything THAT big planned for 2015, except for the fact that I will get to voice my own character in a new video game I am helping an overseas gaming company create, and I may hit one million subscribers on my Youtube channel by the very end of the year. <3

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Daemon; I suppose it's only two now, because I see that one has already made plans.... But:

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The first one is a quiet male from Dublin, with a great personality once he warms up to you a bit. I absolutely love being around him, even though he lives really far away from my home in Los Angeles. There are so many great things about him, but one thing that is really special to me is how well we get along. He's so easygoing and really helps to keep me grounded with my sanity intact.

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The second is an outgoing male that really loves fashion. He always knows how to make me feel better, whether I'm just under stress from work or dreading waking up the next morning. Ari can always make me smile, or help me take out some stress, and he's always there, even on my worst days. He is also great to be around, and so much fun to hang out with. I don't know what I'd do without him.

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"You know I can’t always be strong, and this is one of those moments. I mean, how can you stay strong when the one thing that gives your life meaning isn’t there anymore?”

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Ryker didn’t say anything to me. He just squeezed my hand as tightly as he could muster and let out a whimper. It broke my heart.

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“Ryk,” I started out quietly, “I just want you to know that I love you.”
His eyes fluttered open, looking straight into mine as he managed to croak out, “I love you too, Dae.”
Tears were streaming down both of our faces, and we refused to let go of each other. The heart monitor connected to Ryker was beginning to beep down, and this time a feeling deep in the pit of my stomach told me it was going to be for good.

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(Two days later- At Funeral)

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I stood in the back of the room, silently drowning in my own sadness as I watched each family member or friend step up to talk about Ryker. I was barely allowed to leave the hospital that evening, but had managed to convince the doctors and nurses to let me go for just long enough to attend the funeral. Now, I was beginning to wonder why I had come. Person and person stepped up and delivered their own speech, but I wasn’t really listening. I had already gone up to say what was on my mind, and now I just wanted to run. Time ticked by as the funeral proceeded, and I was avoiding everyone I knew. By the time I left the back room where I had been down on my knees, squalling like a baby, the entire building had nearly cleared out. Ryker’s parents, my parents, and Ryker’s little sister were the only patrons who still remained. I approached them at a limping gait, wiping at my bloodshot, swollen eyes. Ryker’s mother handed me a small, rectangular shaped box without a word. I went to open it up, trembling hands fumbling with the neatly-tied bow on top of it. The lid dropped to the floor and I was surprised at what I found inside of the box: three identical feathers, all colored in a variety of brilliant greens. There was a note, scrawled messily on a piece of paper. As I lifted it from the box and started to read, my eyes began to burn once again with the tears that flowed down my cheeks. They were from Ryker. The message scribbled on the paper felt like a knife to the heart. He had written it in the hospital, and asked for it to be delivered to me.

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“Daemon, I’m sorry I couldn’t give these to you in person. You mean the world to me, and I want you to have something to remember me by. Promise me that you won’t ever give up. If you go down, I know you’ll go down fighting. I love you. –Ryker”

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Who are you and why are you so interested in the designs/characters that I like? xD

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Obviously Cassian is one of my favorites, along with the rest of the Kias owned by Zandom XP, and my boy, Daemon (the yin-yang Kia) but there are so many more amazing Kiamaras that it would be hard to pick just a couple. I think all of these are owned, but here are a ton of links:

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http://hiddencities.deviantart.com/art/Flatsale-kias-542472469

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http://polaris-rose.deviantart.com/art/Craft-Mac-n-Cheese-Flatsale-Still-open-542031874

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http://pandoras-island.deviantart.com/art/big-horns-sold-541440220

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http://talonex.deviantart.com/art/Neutrois-Pride-Flatsale-Closed-540303742?q=gallery%3AKiamaras%2F52749579&qo=32

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http://www.chickensmoothie.com/Forum/viewtopic.php?f=53&t=2241460

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http://www.chickensmoothie.com/Forum/viewtopic.php?f=53&t=2498122

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http://fc05.deviantart.net/fs70/f/2014/286/3/c/kia4_by_pandoras_island-d82qte6.png

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http://pandoras-island.deviantart.com/art/tropical-warrior-sold-543475075

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http://polaris-rose.deviantart.com/art/Grape-Creamsicle-Flatesale-542031848

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http://pandoras-island.deviantart.com/art/music-to-my-ears-sold-541662307

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http://pandoras-island.deviantart.com/art/glowing-moss-sold-541674693

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