Well, because all my life I've struggled with major depression, doctor visits, meds, the works. Nothing helped me and so everything mean someone says to me literally doesn't even just sit in my mind so I can process it, the idea just automatically makes me even more sad and depressing thoughts pop up. So when he told me things like I was a fat whale and I should drink bleach & hang myself , it didnt just seem like someone trying to be rude.. It seemed like someone was literally just on a mission to get me to leave the earth or whatever. Sorry.. Hah