because humans are ignorant and greedy and full of obsession for power and money and there's no changing it. it's disgusting, but there's no changing it.
because some people feel they have no reason to enjoy it. some people are tired, and sad, and it isn't their fault. but when they feel that way it makes them doubt things, like themselves, their relationships with people, and life. things become more and more difficult and depression sets in, and life becomes optional to the mind of a sad person. not all sad people get this deep into it, but for the people that do, they are fighting a war with their own mind. for the people that DO enjoy life to the fullest, good. keep doing that. never doubt yourself, never look at yourself and say you aren't worth it. never say you want to be alone and push everyone away so you can be. because all that will end up happening is you will be sad, and lonely, and tired. it's not worth it. sad people do enjoy life, but not in the same way happy, free people do. and it's a way that I guarantee you will never want to experience.
I want to be remembered as a girl, that nobody really paid attention to at first. someone that everyone thought was just another girl with everyday traits. but then one day, that girl exploded into someone totally beyond everyone's expectations. I want to inspire. I want to show people that it's okay to be different, it's okay to be a size bigger, it's okay not to look like that model in a Victoria secret ad. but it is never okay to doubt yourself. I've done that for way too long and it's taken me to rock bottom. no one ever deserves to doubt themselves, every one is worth an unfathomable amount, and whether they know it or not, I want to be someone that shows it to them. THAT is how I want to be remembered.
to get friends that actually stay in my life, to have my relationship continue with my boyfriend, and hopefully just a better time than what 2013 gave me.
I wrote a long paragraph explaining why this year was horrible for me... Then I re-read it and thought better of myself than to put on my problems on this website.So to keep it short and simple, no, this year was shit.