because when people are sad or angry or just have any kind of feeling they know what to do, they smile, cry,... when i'm sad i don't know what to do, crying doesn't relieve me from all the pain i feel, i've been trough so much, you can't even imagine.... so i just want to control the pain i feel in my heart and haid in pain i feel on my body, pain that i can control, that's why i self harm, buth i don't know who you are, buth never start self harming, it's the baddest thing you can do, talk to someone talk to me....