You wanna know why? because every time I try and talk to my 'friends' they either stop listening or laugh and me. Nobody texts me anymore to hangout. I hardly talk to anyone anymore. The only time I do talk to any of them is in school because I have classes with them. Compared to them, in my opinion I think I'm just a bitchy ugly piece of shit. I'm weird, I'm "too skinny," I have huge hop bones that every one comments on, my hair is always messy, I'm stupid because I don't understand anything, I was told I always look "poor," and nobody keeps their word. People always tell me how much they care and that they'll always be there for me. Well you know what. Where are they when I'm sitting at home alone in my bedroom crying because of how much I hate myself? Exactly. They don't care, or understand. At lunch they talk about how pathetic people are because they wanna kill theirself. I don't even care anymore. I am so happy with Cody, but people can't let me be happy can they? People try and say hurtful things about me and how much he doesn't like me. He loves me and I know he does. Stop trying to ruin my happiness. God damn it's my life let me live. I don't love my life, but at least I'm still trying right? I can't even count how many times I've been called ugly, worthless or stupid. Just stop. It hurts me so much to hear that. I'm trying to be the best but I guess that isnt enough for anyone. I'm done trying to impress everyone. It will never be good enough. I'm just going to try and be the best for me. I don't care if I get rude comments. It wouldn't be anything I haven't heard before so knock yourself out. I'm going to ignore it and not even acknowledge it. So don't bother wasting your time. I have thicker skin now so you can't bring me down. I'm living a happy life now! :)