بُثينَه

Hey, I want to put an the end to this depressed. I can't feel comfortable in my life anyway. I did my best to be a good person but I didn't find any good results. The sense of failure and i'm not good enough to be the right friend for anyone kills me slowly. People think that the most bad feeling when you leave someone you love but I think that feeling of lonely and failure are the worst. I hope god will guide me to the right road, I just want to feel comfortable.

Everything is illogical. My life has become chaotic, full of exhausting adventures. Inside, i became empty. i can't stand anymore. lost in a long way of disappointments. No one feels my suffering. I was proud every time i fell down and survived alone. But this time, i fell for a long time and didn't survive yet. No one has preferred to me except my soul, which destroyed. I hope that this mess will end soon or i'll end.
-Buthainaa